12.16.2019

i'm still alive


Soon siempre comes

Project radiator broils insides, no wonder always so thirsty, cocoa butter can’t quench internal dehydration, once was normal, now just want to leave, an early exit unless you linger longer than required, more hawks circle over littlest session, hunting obvious scraps from open air garbage, morning ritual demands fresh inspiration, seated at perfect angle, no fatigue, renewed hours escape burning busting or sleeping in between squeeze a hallelujah out anxious arms, all that temporary distraction, hope don’t cause harm jaba’o jovencito who could smoke so quiet, loudest coughs, abandoned disciplined focus, necessity of declaration with dedicated action, no more time to play outside, began not so secretly over 20 years ago, got that elevation if you need it – just saying – don’t go looking everywhere else when you know right down block – most convenient medicine magnet convergence of juncos confirms thought process, no evolution exists if keep pressing rewind, searching for lost nickels will never find purpose looking behind unless calculate sum of grandest mistakes never made again, may these bodies take migration flight of eternal flutter, crispiest praise to stoned stuckiness, these bricks shall remain long past bluesiest demise, doing best I can, nothing else, do you hear me confessing my stress, heart recovering from old bruise, everyday lonely fighting, this extension beyond before plea for forgiveness, earliest emergency, jumbled heave honest players for everlasting love, when asked what can’t live without, won’t prefer death over this lovely pain, yet key to survival; carry on, handle bizness accordingly despite the bullshit because that’s gonna happen, happy response is best answers, create classic destined to become.