happy 2012

i know mad late, but blessings to anyone coming through here and still checking this out. been living fams, that is all. won't be kissing no one's ass to get a feature. won't be coming outta pocket to spit at your open mic. i'm happier than i've ever been just writing for the sake of. maybe one day your college will have me back and i'm looking forward to it. props to stony brook, st thomas aquinas, st johns and el museo for showing me some love. hope to get back to the nuyorican some time soon. i got the green light to be rocking so i might just pop up at your reading. but what's good with spots charging talent? all i can offer is these words, as broke as they are. hope that is enough. pa'lante gente. holla at me on facebook, twitter, and tumblr. this will always be here. for you. antmorales.tumblr.com

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Upside Down

Feel the need to disconnect
My sphere of influence spinning
Diamonds in the rough
It is never enough continuous movement
On time though late mind reclined
To syncopate reevaluate

Put myself back on point
On a grind that seems to cause friction
No questioning my identity whole gangsta is fiction
Mine is more something exotic you never seen
Though connected to earth soul in the stars
So my destiny you wish for a brighter tomorrow
In the rotten manzana don’t hope to beg or borrow

Must really be thorough cause courage at a premium
Short sale on suckas you could purchase your persona on ebay
Your experience lacks references
Potential could be powerful credential
Only if you do the magnificent brilliant spectrum
Might connect your 7 powers was only if willing and able
To twist your accolades and burn in memory of
Your ancestors whose cages have shaped your lens

The morning time looks odd after battle
The bodies on the floors rendered invisible
Inventing new catharsis because the metamorphosis
Been far from easy spent enough years
Chilling with greasy handshakes mumbled what you said
I hear you exactly I’m fed by fried frustration
That got my hemorrhoids hurting
Wasn’t in preparation to ache
Though my pain
Could wake the planets shake
If you take stock
You find that your holdings are private

Congratulations are in order
As I sit right next to what might make me
Uncomfortable any other occasion
Than right now I scribe the scroll
Declaring my art will be forever outta control
With the penmanship of prior transgressions

I take the weapons away from whoever claims authority
The majority resist as the minority insist on the chance
To beg to differ at a quicker speed to decipher
The higher message almost electric how the pace
Will require you to inspire
The radio voices over the bridge
Your train of thought allow you to run local
For those still traveling slow motion

Every answer you need lies within you
Just been ignoring the heavenly séance
You might have been on
At one point
But when did you fall
Will you stand tall
To answer the final call?

My fatigue factor got me focused on
The flickering finish line
Might maybe a mirage but that image in my dream
Will keep me going forever owing debt
On that shit that don’t remain
Your tears have become refuge
Your smile my dedication
Your face rearrange the way I see mourning
Your heart make me realize a new day is dawning

Am I sincere in my purpose
Perhaps my truth makes you nervous
I meant for you to be precisely secure in your secret self
Releasing my delf but can’t declare the winner
Until we have a photographic finish
Oops the cameraman must have forgot
To reload the film
The wind has mustered
The message to make you move beyond
Stay alive child
Keep on living until you are gone

get you some


Why so glum chum
Few steps away from being a bum
Those gloomy skies match
Your vision of the future

How many moons removed
From your higher education pinnacle
Are you still broker than windows
On a rotten theory leading to your confidence demise

182’s motto was reach for the stars
But the clouds won’t break for you to make a wish

You have just missed opportunity
That slid through for your eventual uprising

Almost caught yourself sizing up your coffin
Why has lately the brain been drifting often
To your large shortcomings

Still running away from where you need to be happy
Wearing a caged bird mask adding your luggage
Under eyes still searching for what is meant

No fleeting fantasies assassinating your apathy
Life in crosshairs don’t know whether
To duck or scream

It was all a dream
Until being above 30
Pockets on Bugs’ ears have you in
Uncomfortable hypothermia

Parts of your heart are frostbitten
Warm up to where you at
You worked hard for each blessing
As you are teaching learn from your lessons

Not just burning those confessions
In every session producing more questions

Was there ever a definitive statement
Declaring your innocence

Privilege just a higher potent poison by Hennessy
Looking for enemies when you have been your own worst

Probably scribbled classic verses
Already forgotten soon as ink dries on wrinkled page

Like furrowed brow with matching receding hairline
Demonstrates how demons got you far from straight

So twisted you are crooked looking for way out
With back to wall crowd rapidly forming

Slowly breaking down while neck has
Felt the lashes of whips self congratulations

No Barry Horowitz but even he was dedicated to grind
Advanced digital age no rewind button to fast forward
Dubs of you fronting who has ever had your back

You make your own path looping around
The track to remember vital purpose

Are you working hardly enough
Do what you have to thrive
What else do you want to discuss? 

rainy days make me feel like

Moody Blues

Poor favors let you know
Eso si que es (SOCKS)
If you got feet I got something
That might cover the chilly chills
Make sure you read the fine print
Before signing that deal
Might have your life on auction to the lowest bidder
All that fire water makes your grill bitter
Like the sour overpowered all actions
What happened to that passion
Christ being whipped out
Had Viejas praying to the senor for bendiciones
Saying gracias for their good graces
Amazing existence hasn’t expired
Before you retire allow for some sort
Of impact contributing to the world’s rotation
Name is one of primary attributes
So don’t underestimate infinite worth
Purpose must define search
Finding whatever remains in front of perplexed puzzle
Switch up your context
Develop your content
Thoughts are true sums of where you are headed
If you declared your visions
Effort must be effective

All praises due for making that move
Elevating somewhere beyond the block
Watch alternate versions of yourself
Running away from cops as they raid the spot
Looking for invisible trap doors
Next to cracks in the ground
How does the view sound?
Like sirens lighters flicking harsh curses
Frustrated cries releasing cold bullets to fly
To places we dreamed we could touch
Rush of blood floating backwards
In congested veins bringing goosebumps
To skin’s surface
Hardest work has been overstanding the cost
Of weight attached to slumped shoulders
Every soldier eventually goes back home
Whether in a box or flawed flesh
Unable to shake fatal mistakes
That have you second guessing present actions
Progress has you considering
Against the grain struggle lack of hustle
Has resulted in your broke baller status
Cold season has only affected your preexisting disorder
Younger perspective us comtemporary character
Would be a complete slaughter
Pick up quickly whatever you left behind

Ain’t nothing particular holding you down
Allow the empty air to easily oppress
Cool wind discourages you to bounce
How rapidly ounces disintegrate to cloudy emotions
Potions evaporate in front of chemical reactions
Causing molecules to collide
Breakdown of atomic structure
Secondary rupture causing slippage
On your sure footing
Putting your point of view on full blast
Don’t drop the climate control setting
Frosty to brisk regretting reason
Believing in false ideas
Has you committed to false fuckery
That follows even more that fickle shadow
Have you bathing in shallow puddles
Figuring out what is currently happening
Like answers missing puzzle pieces
Destiny’s thesis lacks solid evidence
No credible references in hood’s tenements
Step foot in traps of shaky perhaps
Might land in solid maybe
Whatever your wet noodles
Don’t leave them dry without sufficient gravy
Lately really was all of a sudden
Claiming you are part of something
You are bluffing

Your mood is connected to the clouds
When hanging low feels like you could grab the sky
When split open until bright blue
Confused by too many options
Locked in uncomfortable rigidity
Typically decisions flavored by whatever
You could put off for later
Better to be a creator
How your faith manifested
Confidence be battle tested streets approved
Polyrhythmic revolutionary groove designed
To inspire conspicuous popular consumption
Assumption of apathy towards every action
Precise reaction to soul clashing
Responsibility should give you sense of proper direction
Upon further reflection
Realize few protections from inevitable struggle
Listening to same songs
Heard different melodies
Homeopathic remedies more powerful
Than prescription invented to distance resistance
So futile
Anticipating fast transportation
Road guaranteed to have pothole turbulence
Disturbance in truculent universe
Find serenity
In silent solar system
Under star that guides your path