sometimes be feeling blah.....give me the strength to get through these days

new shit

wish everyone peace and serenity. i will miss harlem. cant believe this boogie down baby is going to queens. ay dios. let's get it. 2010.

in the gritty

In the Gritty, you can’t help but blink hard
-after Oscar Bermeo

God of 2nd guessing
God of highly doubtful
God of greedy misfortune
God of grinding
God of get up get out do something
God of gangsta gangsta
God of airing it out
God of what’s cracking
God of what’s popping
God of can’t stop won’t stop
God of I gots to get my weight up
God of haters who love you
God of lovers who hate you
God of getting low
God of getting fresh
God of make believe magic
God of magnified miracles
God of meaning well
God of so much lint I’m rich
God of so much money I’m broke
God of gimme greed
God of it’s all about me
God of get the fuck outta here
God of you better not be playin me
God of Build a Nation
God of I’m tired of waitin’
God of wake up with the sun
God of Government Cheese
God of Food Stamps
God of No Frills gives more chills
God of no worldly possessions
God of concealed weapons
God of Stop and Frisk
God of Freedom as a last wish
God of Central Bookings
God of Public Defenders
God of troubled pretenders
God of swear I’m innocent
God of presumed guilty
God of crosseyed justice
God of Lady Liberty
God of Privitized prisons
God of We Need You
God of is anyone listening?

asi fue

Asi fue

Another night
In the essence
Of what remains

How can you
Ride the train
Along the spine
Of the sinister city

Time passes
By so quickly
Whenever you
Want life to pause

Often I find myself
Wandering around
Lost from the main
Objective next mission

Searching outside
Everything been here
In front of face
Right below eyes

The room where
You wish upon
The moon cracked
Light shot to awake

Questions await fate
Careful to wise choice
Another disaster comes
From fast mistake

Walking amongst guts
Butts loose lips nuts
Quick thighs prompt high
Salty tears friends die

Benches where queens
Are found strutting
To get to otherside
Smile sunshine survive

What can you say
When the words aren’t enough
Inspiration to keep you going
Sitting naked and silent

Without a clue for plans
Right now is life
Everything else is dreams
Spending money on smoke

That evaporates 10 minutes
After burned forgotten mission
And all those things
You thought you coulda did

Always same shit another day
How about different mierda
And some time to pray
For ways outside of this

Can’t describe only want you
To live it with my eyes my stomach
My legs my feets
Constant vibrations when breeze blows

Feels so weak more weeks pass
Nothing changes souls trip
Close to the edge slip
Remnants scent remains

Strange when home feels unsafe
Even more odd when you look around
And see older faces chasing the memories
You left behind in a bag by the benches

Not knowing if tomorrow will ever come
Smiling sunshine survive