8.30.2016

another session


blunts upon a dime

/was your major       concern/never was               long term/past          what we were burning/       so don’t ask me         about establishing                legacy/wasn’t ready                         after graduation/young                   climate of confusion/misdirection is first glance               of illusion/all your ruins           have fossils/bleak                 reminder of               stark failures/           how the frack            did you leak that star/            did you peak              thus far/or are you               on belly flop ascent/ within lies      unique characteristic/          improvise       don’t allow             scripted statistic/      already missed          all those parties                                 you wouldn’t have attended/         mysteries blended into harsh truth/straight             no blazer/                  state of grace extra blessings as appetizers/                     fried disasters main course/desert refreshing/    sweet to shake you awake/ o for hoodness escape/        explosions contained within flammable veins/     average unknown ghosts             visit quite often/       dap up            the doubt/     so you                         at least            show face/                 don’t hang too late/              swing blindly at piñata         full of mistakes/        watch blunders stick behind you like                     shooting targets attached to where you wouldn’t wash off with weak reach/          soap and water masks hidden stench        trap marathon/oppression stacked generations shuffled/                                    jokers wild/black sheep       flavor fever nobody wants you to chill around/one deep           to the head    coolest company kept/  own best enemy worst friend/                   won’t wear anybody else’s skin                  except for this           oily sweaty     hairy skinny               epidermis/largest act up aching/               drink more water/                won’t be so ashy/     somebody threw sessions’ tray on your forehead/      with wrinkles and greys that won’t exfoliate/                  ghetto gravity stank attitude accelerate atrophy/            either wither or pudge away/ this can be the day   you put sin to the side/                   high senses keenly aware                all the action happening                  while party still chat/                     don’t be too loud                   off the volume in that bag/stashed/shush/          what up          how you feel/                        great/             at this lovely family gathering/                               had an epiphany                               look

mira estupido


noid nincompoop

spine cracking/dry knuckles/scuffed knees/too many falls/wrists same size as shorty/closest to seeing skeleton/fast forward/chubby ribs/stretch out/posture/so won’t be hunchback/always looking/for what you lost/large worth/work every flaw/stop biting nails/stop burning loose/stop frequenting hot blocks/stop eating bacon egg & cheese each morning/stop absorbing everyone else’s anxiety/tried sobriety/quite sobering/procrastinate premise/potential readily stagnates/within flabby hairy chest/you need to find home/growing where you planned breeds good awareness/slight preparedness/eager slip up/so sloppy/watch where you step/breaths provided by damaged respiration $/lungs rejuvenated/lighter load/limit to getting done/stiff starch preserves rotten wrinkles/wipe worry off sweaty brow/place finger inside/electric belly/whiff umbilical attachment/parched chakras block knowledge porque/left with hands in air/asking for almighty absolution/start to look at your life/in context/rest of world/conscious of privilege/love as purely as/foolish heart can endure/regressive like pathetic hairline/javiel’s knockout responsible/for demise of your nervous front/after parents split/emergency excuse became everyday/add profundity of heartache/in long scope of nuyorican history/no wonder you so lifted/galvanized by anonymous/police invasion of apt 7a/hammer to skull/instant silence/trauma funny/pop up however you don’t remember/until least convenience/manifested malaise/knot stuck in trapezius/since each moment hands held behind back/unable to escape/petty mistakes/never your fault/wrap bony arms/around each poem/fast like holding your wife/who you guess/still loves beyond convention/of nothing else/so rushed many years in/what do you have/to show for/twisted travels/except for entire anthology/in crate at bottom of mother in law house/that your better half/wants to purchase/necio nescio/at least this body/of service

been a long time, just been living,


circumference

circle stance/show up as you left/ready to leave/last when you define demise/antonym of rise/somehow purgatory/in your body/gather spooky haunts/every uniform has chilling effects/respect drops/paranoia persist/in spite of environment/bent energy everywhere/at red line/terrible threshold/until tomorrow taps mouth/no more words left except/pain preserved/on pages yellowing like t shirts pitted/pick any trauma from menu/abandonment a lo mode/disaster dim sum/stir fried violence/artisan shame/guilt gazpacho/empty eggs/scars soufflé/don’t care what you write/watch what you say/might take a minute/when days are centuries/seconds are moments/but hours/add up to lifetime of blessed seasons/mixed wasted sessions/who dare tippy toe on tight rope/with twisted balance/still got smoke bubbling through veins/each wire frayed underkept/lo nervio/how you made/oye musica for every ear/notes tremble with fear/walk away/recognize divine is nearest/between head & heart/vida displayed/live so let there/be no mistake/soak magic to marinate/ain’t no escape/stay steady/difficult departure/how you came to this path/quest in your chest/anxious lungs/post up/presence never been problem/accept skin/sadness burst within/ready if you will/listen/the levels/the levels is good/holding onto hood/overstood you already/knowledge your science/experimental sound/bring victory to view/starving garden chrome point/cpg chosen few/break plexiglass swivel window/lemme get pack of freedom/fuck you mean/sold out/inventory & got no love in storage/mourned couldn’t teach each lesson/priceless worth applied/like son’s first big wheel ride/run behind/ensure nobody falls/guarantee been bruised/cried sweated enough for us all/

2.01.2016

Clason Point Gardens Poetry

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After you hop off the Bx5
At the corner of Story and Noble
Head up the block to Hot Millz
24/7 convenience Lotto and Deli
for your preferred roll ups dollar Arizona
and Ham & Cheese on roll
before you go back to the lab
so you can eat relax zone out and don’t
have to go back outside to pass the chessboards
see Dee Lush wrinkle under orange ambiance
every Bloka watching cars criss cross twisted lane
what set you claim
what gang you bang
what up Tone session
why you keeping it moving
no longer chill while all the broke homies linger
everyone grew up passed on left behind
once was great
now outside way too late
lost can’t find
salvation on sale at corner store
no way to escape
we here until we find something better
never forget foundation
remember everywhere you fell down
scraped skin thought wouldn’t stop bleeding
what a feeling bags getting more brolic
Walk around every brick got similar flame product
So much fire
Burned away potential of powerful pueblo
Continuing legacy of broken barrio
Who will organize the tenants of Clason Point
All those years
Generations squeezed in couches
Any possibility of public private propriety
Instead infectious anxiety
PSA 8 still lurking for a security slip
Overnight trip
Throggs Neck Housing Precinct not even
43rd across slick street
Right next to People’s Firehouse with
Season’s Greetings Wreath
Peek from childhood windows
Might find best friend from next door
Paying drive thru visit
Cement spirit mimic ice grill lyrics
Every Soundview rapper brags about
What guap they got
But you real Sangre
Under federal indictment
Move quiet about how you get it
Nah so loud
Always advertise whatever emptiness available
Wise guy grey hairs gracefully exit
Out the game but you stayed past your prime
Now a shorty shit stain
Who used to be your doula
Wants to splatter extinction
Until you ain’t safe
To smoke in the same place
Bullets chase sharp poison
Bitter liquor sweet revenge
Don’t exist when you still on same bench
Disappear before sun drops temperature
Raises death as topic of conversation
Quick casualty
Coughing up what’s left of courage
Creeping around chest
Powerful mind weakest flesh
Fool school over sweaty chichos
At sausage fest sponsored by Hennessy XO
Very special
Influential insight inhibited because so much
Dumb shit disrupted long lineage
What legacy can we establish for our descendants
Bequeath reputation rotten hatred foul doctrine deceit
Pass along plugs if legit
Let me hold whatever’s remaining
After love evaporates
Meet up at Jimbo’s for best breakfast in regular radius
Built about where we been
Begin to embrace where we at
Hood is toxic trap
But our families held on to us
Push us forward never back onto cool curb pillow
Snooze how much lost
But rest of life here to gain
Every garden mobbing
Where’s the promise of hungry money
Historical district of urban planning
Benign neglect failure follows fickle finance
Food stamps fed us
Malnourished with nutritional deficiencies
From false profit
Never acknowledged for ambitious stories
Instead robbed of liberty
Lack of freedom
Prisoners of ignorant glory
Can’t blame brothers
Bearing beastly burden vicious victims
Of political impoverished public housing system
But bredren
It ain’t the illuminati
That’s killing our righteous living

9.30.2015

Searching for Optimism


Pull up

Exchange routes
Relax

Either wise or points high
Swiftly drive by

Interrupt pacing
Racing against what we facing

Immeasurable odds
Forever filthy

Who will feel me
Look over like I love this guy
CPG benches type high

Manana embrace next level
Peace power and justice

Follow faith endless
Always family

Simply stuck
When we all soured up
And don’t give a fuck

What will try enough
Laughing while lurking
Who regards how you searching

Shut down
Next caveman catharsis
Sag with cane sugar

Props for going brazy
Syrupy corn

Exclusive fire
Throat raspy
Strip club market niche

3rd still scrapping everlasting
Past margin figure that’s cool
Extent of burned out topology

Make up craters age
Slams gravity on hollowed out lungs

This ain’t going nowhere
Soother gotta travel on rugged forest
Break fences ignite under branches

So hype you can taste spliffy saliva
Straight stuntastic rental stash

Riding slow obeying traffic laws
Against crooked bookings central
Anthem celebrate suffocating
What we wish to own

Original god building with ancient wisdom
How was you listening to concrete breathe
Lyrics classic quotable
Chasing chickens

Paint perfect trap talk
Young’n undersmell dank aroma
Light depression heavy clouds
No more or left

Take a leak test
Sum up all your experiences
Results ain’t no epiphany

Extinguished side on
Who back you got

Overstand how reckless fools are
Stooges hobbling for crossover
Ankles all ashy

This brother preaching homicide
When he needs hope and a hot meal
Cool room to crash

When everybody bounce
You still listening to your hood hits
While crew said Fuck You
You stayed wanting end of night el

If flock’s dead who can guide sheep
Towards revival

Resurrection ain’t easy
If respiration’s potential is cloudy
Fizzy piss determines which way you drive

When we gonna thrive
Absolutely complacent with
Public housing paradise

Yap where you at
False prophets fake followers

For Venom can only hope that we apply
Lessons to strengthen next generation

No guidance for chancla entourage
Pinball piff spots perhaps
Next presidents will have passed time like this

Illuminate infrastructure injected inferiority
Within each puff how powerful
Parents potted where your youth lit it loud

Had it once upon a had to grow up
Gain more mananas young brolic
Flexing like fuck it hashtag validviolation

Push purpose in that pen
Friends like family only few left
Go get it the best

Less than never
Stay quite clever
For what you given

Much is owed
Load blessed burden

New world turning in innocent brains
Still that kid from Clason Point Lane

Look yourself in mirror
Please say I CAN
Gather glorious gospel in new land
Embrace unknown
What’s yet to come shall be grand