Showing posts with label frustrated. Show all posts
Showing posts with label frustrated. Show all posts

8.30.2016

mira estupido


noid nincompoop

spine cracking/dry knuckles/scuffed knees/too many falls/wrists same size as shorty/closest to seeing skeleton/fast forward/chubby ribs/stretch out/posture/so won’t be hunchback/always looking/for what you lost/large worth/work every flaw/stop biting nails/stop burning loose/stop frequenting hot blocks/stop eating bacon egg & cheese each morning/stop absorbing everyone else’s anxiety/tried sobriety/quite sobering/procrastinate premise/potential readily stagnates/within flabby hairy chest/you need to find home/growing where you planned breeds good awareness/slight preparedness/eager slip up/so sloppy/watch where you step/breaths provided by damaged respiration $/lungs rejuvenated/lighter load/limit to getting done/stiff starch preserves rotten wrinkles/wipe worry off sweaty brow/place finger inside/electric belly/whiff umbilical attachment/parched chakras block knowledge porque/left with hands in air/asking for almighty absolution/start to look at your life/in context/rest of world/conscious of privilege/love as purely as/foolish heart can endure/regressive like pathetic hairline/javiel’s knockout responsible/for demise of your nervous front/after parents split/emergency excuse became everyday/add profundity of heartache/in long scope of nuyorican history/no wonder you so lifted/galvanized by anonymous/police invasion of apt 7a/hammer to skull/instant silence/trauma funny/pop up however you don’t remember/until least convenience/manifested malaise/knot stuck in trapezius/since each moment hands held behind back/unable to escape/petty mistakes/never your fault/wrap bony arms/around each poem/fast like holding your wife/who you guess/still loves beyond convention/of nothing else/so rushed many years in/what do you have/to show for/twisted travels/except for entire anthology/in crate at bottom of mother in law house/that your better half/wants to purchase/necio nescio/at least this body/of service

2.26.2015

so called leaders with no followers


Verguenza Sin Baba

Conference full of clowns
Experts elected to maintain status quo

Shucking jiving to squeeze inside
Ivory tower illusions of power

Mingling minions
Hungry for idol worship

Suck up with selfie to prove
You rub elbows with celebrity academics

King’s crown lack sincere shine
Dangle you dream with torn laundry line

Dirty drawers thrown away
Forgotten funk realer than elevator jingle

Crazy how far block fame
Can bring you back to foundation

Genesis of critical consciousness
Essential why

Pen to paper sacred word cry
Heavenly muse decided to pay visit

Divine reception inspiration
Soothes spirit so much static in city
Can barely hear your own voice

Many choices few options
No selection stuck on bobito

You are writing to heal soul
Not become spokesman of your people

So much evil
Lurking tempting you to join
Spaced out zombies

Brain meat chunks
Deep dive in dark lagoons
Curse thought clouds
For lack of levitation

Analyze situation
Stuckazoid in middle of Smacked City

Poor barely get pity
Rich are rotten ripe

Picking apart bones from flesh
Hollow skull brittle skeleton

Miscreant meddlin
Right where devil’s been

Prepare receive blessings
Daily work is your evidence

fucked up angel


Nuyorican Angel of Desperation

Go get it
Got that fever itching

Cojelo con take it easy
Suave pai
No need for bug out be chillz

Relax these are facts
Relapse more probable than elevation
Resuscitation of reputation unlikely

Why try fighting your oppression
You have that tranquil passive lean

Fux your American dream
CREAM ain’t just a ring tone

Bunch of shallow company
Shut up and smoke dope

Shells never dummy
How hungry are you

Enough to sacrifice
Can you go with out

No matter how loud you shout
No one listening

Hands clammy puddles
Plan one day to bubble

For now real struggle
Cotton mouth stinky paranoia

Legal aid inconvenient lawyer
Lack of ours waste hours

Watching brown skin wrinkle
Dried fruit bruised and beautiful

Shit shave shower
Might feel better about regular routine

Pana this ain’t a dream
Attempting fantasia out every day

Which way
Can’t fix a crooked game

Exclusive proof you lame
Copycat kitty until you bitten
Hand that breeds you
Who believes you

People in lurk of some strife
Gripping bubble guts

So hangry could belch
For fine first impression

Eye contact without daps
Thirsty coqui peleando
For last sips of dusty botella of regret 

1.21.2015

2015 heavy

Don’t sign away your life

Pow wow with proud people
Bring forth righteousness

Divine drop jewels round neck
Catch respect all praises for mazes
Meant to capture wide lenses frame

Broken ears repaired heart
Band aid round brain

Rabbit receiver plyers on black and white Vision
Prisons bended bars to let you taste freedom
Through hole in fence

Prevent shame from overpowering passion
Why did you begin rapping
Lurking remixes to love death pain happiness

Satisfied with malaise
Conquering inaction with professionalism

Maturity assuredly
Positive logical profitable blessings added
Each one like counting pennies

Who can be friendly
When acquaintance is convenient enemy

Wondering why you so lonely when you seek
Bitter company suffering solitude
When you should have happier attitude

Open windows look out pull shade
Pray to mirror give thanks to sky

All the reasons why lie outside
Go gather your semillas
To reap proper harvest

Charges against you been dropped
At the puddles you been splish splash

Catching chill at dusty elbows
Let your warmth thaw your frost

Add up the cost
Cancel out your weakness

What is this voice you speak of
Grappling ghosts
Deadening demons

Realize your potential is within
Shine of your gleaming

No more half stepping
Declaring dreams out loud

10.27.2014

Fetti Cheddar Guap Paper Currensy Stacks



Disposable income

Preexisting condition with affliction
To ignoring cultural tradition

How can this transition into raw capital
Suitable for social economic political guerilla warfare

Known knowns
Known unknown

Hood shorties voluntarily give up
Because of subliminal intimidation

Plantations been preserved
Invisible chains around decaying brain

Withering body
Unhealthy processed bodega
Tasty synthetic food
Hunger pains give ill attitude

Students said it’s too dark in projects
Can only read by streetlight

Bleak vision fuzzy focus
They leave the TV on so commercials
Can program their dreams

Gold plated ghetto
Is not as shiny as it seems with

Delicious distraction
Fashionable fads
Terror trends

Can’t recognize
Who is enemy
Who is friend

None left
Vulture scavengers have bled
Remainder of revolution

Mosquito drone fly into ear
Make you zone to lower levels

Scan barcode of humanity
Only see veins intoxicated

Corrupt chemicals
Inedible vegetables

Seeds sown in contaminated soil
Guns oil diamonds

Carrot dangling silly rabbits
Will never feast

Ain’t no place safe
When eyes always watching

Plotting sophisticated algorithm
Disrupting electric signals
Governing stressed nervous system

Delayed reaction makes you
Destroy your brother
Slander your sister

Misguided violence produces
Empty existence

So ignorant never learned how to listen
Mire bobito
Pon atencion

Greatest weapon is a burnt tongue
Waiting to scream
Declare the pain

We need world to change
Overcoming internal conflict

Soul guiding purpose
Application of essential knowledge

Critical to resurrection of reason
Believe in pigment’s power

Melanin reflection of sun
Heart’s drum will forever keep a descarga beat

Ready to improvise the inevitable antidote to poison
Polluting our Pa’lante


Upon entrance
Make a ninja like exit

Leaving bodies behind you
With rest of tomorrow in front of
Glossy eyes unafraid of frightful fate

Is it all too late
To start making a comeback

Nah Son
Ain’t where you from
How you break out that trap

9.10.2014

if you claim it/ then own it/ fully without regrets



If I’m a poet
Then I must be responsible
                James Baldwin

So prize
What are you waiting for to begin
Rest of existence

So much resistance to revolution

Rather be comfortable in cut
Waiting for rock salt to sting

Breath of fresh hope
On ropes wobbly legs shabby ankles
Recuperate start to percolate

What gives you shakes
Anxious nerves paranoid premonition

Constitution needs multiple revisions
Declaration must have house remix
Heavy bass crumbling ivory towers
On top of dead white marble statues

Embrace inspiration’s seductive selfie
Inviting you to creep over

Pick up frequency of your delinquency
What can give you more reason to be righteous
Besides modern madness

Paint opus capturing calamity
Contains courage feeding malnourished hopeless

Steaming porridge fresh farina
Grits stick to smoky ring ribs

Guttural Gloria
Palms raised with absolution

Divino when we recognize our Godliness
Smiling musk frowny funks
Wrinkles across beauty marks

Open window
Let city cough away until naptime
Wake up clave at corner colmado con
Proclamations Cristo viene pronto

Stop playing tonto
Suckas posing cool will get
Devil’s pie stacked with sprinkles

Thank viejos for voices
Jumping from tired mouths to eager ears

Thirsty brains needing better reception
Too much radio static

Props to poets hustling hearts on tattoed sleeves
Peace to enemies who try to silence and censor
Oppression knows no boundaries

Ni uno puede cagar en paz
Without demonios out to rob your mananas

Gracias amazing grace within palabras symphony
Voice box sounds syllables
Communicate with electric signals

Praise imagination
Daring dreamers to see
For brighter dawns

Life shouldn’t look like this
Moment in rhyme provided by infinite spirit
Traveling through natural mystic

Atmosphere floating
Getting dirtier by the breath
Precious oxygen vital water
Soon elements all we have left

Earth Wind and Fire
Won’t be telling us to celebrate in September

Remember yesterday
Today moves faster than tomorrow
But that is all we are given

Lucky perhaps
Good looking for another chance
Rugged resurrection
Nothing romantic about reality  

Responsible artist
Pray for power of Pa’lante
Be fearless