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8.30.2016

mira estupido


noid nincompoop

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9.30.2015

Searching for Optimism


Pull up

Exchange routes
Relax

Either wise or points high
Swiftly drive by

Interrupt pacing
Racing against what we facing

Immeasurable odds
Forever filthy

Who will feel me
Look over like I love this guy
CPG benches type high

Manana embrace next level
Peace power and justice

Follow faith endless
Always family

Simply stuck
When we all soured up
And don’t give a fuck

What will try enough
Laughing while lurking
Who regards how you searching

Shut down
Next caveman catharsis
Sag with cane sugar

Props for going brazy
Syrupy corn

Exclusive fire
Throat raspy
Strip club market niche

3rd still scrapping everlasting
Past margin figure that’s cool
Extent of burned out topology

Make up craters age
Slams gravity on hollowed out lungs

This ain’t going nowhere
Soother gotta travel on rugged forest
Break fences ignite under branches

So hype you can taste spliffy saliva
Straight stuntastic rental stash

Riding slow obeying traffic laws
Against crooked bookings central
Anthem celebrate suffocating
What we wish to own

Original god building with ancient wisdom
How was you listening to concrete breathe
Lyrics classic quotable
Chasing chickens

Paint perfect trap talk
Young’n undersmell dank aroma
Light depression heavy clouds
No more or left

Take a leak test
Sum up all your experiences
Results ain’t no epiphany

Extinguished side on
Who back you got

Overstand how reckless fools are
Stooges hobbling for crossover
Ankles all ashy

This brother preaching homicide
When he needs hope and a hot meal
Cool room to crash

When everybody bounce
You still listening to your hood hits
While crew said Fuck You
You stayed wanting end of night el

If flock’s dead who can guide sheep
Towards revival

Resurrection ain’t easy
If respiration’s potential is cloudy
Fizzy piss determines which way you drive

When we gonna thrive
Absolutely complacent with
Public housing paradise

Yap where you at
False prophets fake followers

For Venom can only hope that we apply
Lessons to strengthen next generation

No guidance for chancla entourage
Pinball piff spots perhaps
Next presidents will have passed time like this

Illuminate infrastructure injected inferiority
Within each puff how powerful
Parents potted where your youth lit it loud

Had it once upon a had to grow up
Gain more mananas young brolic
Flexing like fuck it hashtag validviolation

Push purpose in that pen
Friends like family only few left
Go get it the best

Less than never
Stay quite clever
For what you given

Much is owed
Load blessed burden

New world turning in innocent brains
Still that kid from Clason Point Lane

Look yourself in mirror
Please say I CAN
Gather glorious gospel in new land
Embrace unknown
What’s yet to come shall be grand

I still believe I'm a poet. I think that counts for something.


Hope Hangover

When you hit the block
Your fangs descend
Fishscales regenerate
On your exoskeleton

You got a concrete chin in a plywood jaw
With fire hydrant tears

The corner has little concern for
Your vulnerable exterior
Giving away Bravo chips and nacho cheese
On your scrawny shoulders

You left logic leaking from internal bleeding
Beneath the stop sign
Each gypsy cab takes as suggestion

Nobody obeys the speed limit here
Each pedestrian takes rush hour express
For a triplicate signature with notarized witness
Verifying they are you

Hop on shuttle bus completing off books transaction
But forgot a receipt testifying to withdrawal

Call next on full
Hope young boys don’t pick you last
Wait for ball to come to you

Take shot if you open
Make shorties remember your name
Because you got more grey hairs
Than they got losses

Half your sweat inherited
Another amount paranoid investment
For every spot tell them your war stories
Nobody cares unless currency confirmed

Exchanged debt on what you can’t pay
Let gravity pile up your change caliber
Hit up yala to hold a loosey on the arm
While Lucy on patrol salivating for you to spit

Could you ever switch
Write that slithery solo

Dolo to cabeza association of abandona’o
Ese tipo bien pasa’o
Pero chewing for what you can barely nibble

Where mi gente know the riddle of life
Ain’t no fortune cookie

Terrific trinity
Sour haze kush
Begging salvation in front of Holy Cross
Scared to step in all the sins might sting
While angels stare

Who care except who still surviving
Long to scribble in these pages
Face a pagina blanca

Ain’t a smidgeon resembling pigeon
Shitting on you for Buena suerte
Cheers to customers hunting for ganga
Direct dollar tree 99 cent or more
Keep crib mistolin fresh despite
Kitty litter or Entourage

Pausa slash on skin
Buck fifty gauze stitch
Guava guayabera on triple fat goose

Gully peace god
Attempting to maintain
Apply this daily science
So you won’t get an F in finance

Felon without inside tips
Ribs boneless
No bonus for overtime on benches

Homie don’t get spoiled by fine selection
Perforation on back means
Pull with skilled perfection

These walls give dull reception
Sculpt scars around intimidating white space
In a race with shadow
Beating you to finish line

Pinata papi
Candy spin out sugary guts

Take a dump from your clip
Left a few by window sill

Each morning had daily ritual
Sorta iffington in air gone scent linger
Longer than you think

Too much time in between barbed wire parenthesis
Can’t invent these dreams

Wherever you at is the scene
Jungle ain’t gone
Fall through pay your friendly visit

Pain on exhibit
Vintage played out fashion

Wear those wrinkles so well
Old citizen how could you yell
All frazzle stubble

More polite pebble than sure solid rock
On top receding shore
Dawn days of yore

Bubba yummy
Blink unwrap mind map

Where you at
None of your clucking fitness
Tick to click

Memory straight hit trig
Once a kid
Sing a song of Solomon
Lonely king

Hold it like a boulder
Bolsa de fuego waiting to be lit
Who got next twist
Stuff a godfather burned in effigy
Fresh recipe precise knocking
Got whole hood shaking

Over there cheating no duplication
Rain gives papercuts
Bills go extra crispy

Miss me with that frail knowledge
Representation of CPG wise scholars

Ponder tomorrow
Powder pepper trails with dutch remnants
For you to follow

Stuck in town puddle drowns
Strike hype chord praise Lord

Shiver chills ill with bagged up cure
Emptied to be refilled
Form jagged geometry
Geology bugged landscape
Parched tundra

Transform backpark into pop up gallery
Sidewalk silent auction
Spontaneous game from 10473 893 7354

Original numbers remembered
Like scabs you forgot you fell

Train rumble schedule
Static standing behind line caution

Read the signs or
Hack up lung butter fine

Cram shred of steroid corroded beef
Don’t know why or who we fighting
Bare truth at special committee

Where does your sangre stand
Shattered with no lint magic dust

Only got honesty left
With hands out

September is the Best part of the Year, 2015


Sweet September Slide

Have you heard the one about freedom

Further away from cage
More yearning for chains

Diablo don’t want to let you go

Easier with stressed yesterday
Attached to this present moment’s
Ungrateful aspiration

Consequence of faulty policies
Petty procedures

To be sure
Scan the cliff notes contract for fuckshit
Clearly stated in fine print

Forget fantasy
Tropical see and see top pop
Let bubble drip

Math after disposable remainder
Skid mark streak stark reminder

Rusty rainbows beneath cutthroat clouds
Jealous how your skin sponge dirty water

Evil evaporates downpour of doubt
Dedicated despite drought

This limpieza turn chest inside out
Steal what I feel when I reveal what the dealings

Precise percentage almighty algorithm
Punch in data
Spit out promising perspective

Upfront oppression
Shadowy depression

Dragging comfortable cadaver
With impeccable creases
On century lease with daily payments

Compound fracture dusty bones
Exposed hollow tree trunks

Deteriorate core
Break at weakest point

Regenerate scattered pieces of original man

Control your soul
Chaos most charming flaw of character

Mellow meditate during disaster
Super structure founded on
Lazy eyed ghosts of forgotten massacres

Amateur aperture fuzzy focus in foggy film

Wind cries who gives a fuck
Weeping while you wait

Journey starts once you choose to escape

9.16.2015

better said no one misses me


Mejor Dicho

Let me say it better
I have not fully healed

No space for such shy
Fruity pebbles pink milk

Fall sink further into
Well done mistake

Who can relate
Except who always been on time

Slime from chemical residue
All this is long overdue

Petty scofflaw
Penalty inattention fine details

Spiritual forcefield
Repeals those demons

Serious integrity
Never had to schluck and gibe for sanity

Fist bump associates
Hugs daps for family

Handle tragedy as well as
Two tears
Same weight
Dropping in sequence

Broken grammar gives you
No pretense

Pass frank the blunt
Kind candor in choppy cadence

Tell me tomorrow we have clouds
Today been pouring

Honest dollar speak off screech
Squeak young pip
Gone with great expectations

What odds we facing
Chase what block will offer

Hold on to home
Stealing city less likely

Release bullshit lethargy
Pardon me dipstick

Take fridge off door
Step back inside

Provide for who makes you alive
Let faith be your guide

Boi become man
Never too late

You gotta say
What manana you will create

I MISS NYC SO MUCH


The city is my muse

Breathing that traffic train
Rush hours heart don’t stop
Until you get home from work

Brick wind
Concrete grill bitter
Go to hospital be iller

Hit fruit stand
Shiny apple in rotten manzana

Street level pharmacist
Lets you self medicate

Cost of living easy to hate
Gentrifucker hipster
Pricing you out petty paradise
Faking discovering your corner

Life and death been
Standing on the crossroads

Opportunity missed the shuttle bus
Regret begging for a transfer

If you give me a swipe
I’ll freestyle a bootleg fuzzy
With laugh track and camcorder jiggle

Bleak clouds tear jerker
Benefit cut Boar’s Head
Diaper loose and beef pattie

Crying baby needs to nurse
Under neon dollar menu

Parents missing in action
Tears collected in reservoir
Ready to be bottled purified from tap
Slapped by sidewalk

Who will stop and feed that child
Raise youth find beauty in cold cement
Joy in barely paying rent

Suspense not knowing where yesterday went
Born in uncertain barrio

Who will lend you a napkin
If you leak from jugular

Oppression so regular got grooves
Where stiff cuff clicks
Paint by numbers chaos

Sidewalk chalk body outlines
Reaching vertical stretched horizontal

Blast Uptown Baby at OT drivethru
Forever bleed Knicks orange blue
Haunted by lack of success overdue

Make it aqui you will be popping papi
Si no another case of the coulda shoulda
Who wouldn’t put up a battle worthy

Candlelight memorial even if you empty
Every 40 guzzled gallon of goose
Hyped off henny you still can’t drip
As heavy as east flowing to Harlem

Bubbling to Atlantic
Stranded on islands of isolation
Cut the bullshit

Why you carrying around baggage
From past decades
Grinding for minimum wages of routine
Rigamorole all control freaks

Who can’t hold onto hope for too long
The beast will break you weak
Streets can make you strong

What’s more beautiful
Than summer morning
As we wait for dawn

2.26.2015

peace beloved


Gutter Star Haikus
            For Sir Pop a Lot

Color schemes program
Brown shorties to become hood
Subliminal traps

By design you can’t
See sky over projects’ height
Won’t go where don’t see

fucked up angel


Nuyorican Angel of Desperation

Go get it
Got that fever itching

Cojelo con take it easy
Suave pai
No need for bug out be chillz

Relax these are facts
Relapse more probable than elevation
Resuscitation of reputation unlikely

Why try fighting your oppression
You have that tranquil passive lean

Fux your American dream
CREAM ain’t just a ring tone

Bunch of shallow company
Shut up and smoke dope

Shells never dummy
How hungry are you

Enough to sacrifice
Can you go with out

No matter how loud you shout
No one listening

Hands clammy puddles
Plan one day to bubble

For now real struggle
Cotton mouth stinky paranoia

Legal aid inconvenient lawyer
Lack of ours waste hours

Watching brown skin wrinkle
Dried fruit bruised and beautiful

Shit shave shower
Might feel better about regular routine

Pana this ain’t a dream
Attempting fantasia out every day

Which way
Can’t fix a crooked game

Exclusive proof you lame
Copycat kitty until you bitten
Hand that breeds you
Who believes you

People in lurk of some strife
Gripping bubble guts

So hangry could belch
For fine first impression

Eye contact without daps
Thirsty coqui peleando
For last sips of dusty botella of regret 

angels son


Nuyorican Angel of Tragedy

Boiling all of sudden
Drop frozen yucca
Thaw on gummy spine

Precipice of pinnacle
Shaky wobbly
Pocketful of ni papa ni agua

Fuzzy tumbleweed shutdown records
Fertile plot reap succulent revenge
Worthy of heirloom redemption

Biggest flaw is carrying burden
Con gusto

Swimming between comfortable coast
Endless ocean abyss

Get reacquainted with barrio of Atlantis
Switch vantage penthouse fire escape
Boomed out dungeon basement

Bad decisions inconvenient timing
Epiphany evil lurking

Silver lining shadows
Shatter glass in case of certainty
Blurring greys and browns

Thunderstorm with no contingency
Extinction coming imminently

Starts off with cough then congestion
Heavy burden then stressing

Aging before maturity
Unexpected demise
Poverty resigned impossible dreams

Get used to drowning as breathing
Leaking as healing
Losing like keeping

Honesty sneaky stealthily smuggling
Suffering in tiny paper cut slices

Price is cheap
Product defective

Creeping in shadows of blessings
Bathe in bucket of tears
Floating in funnel of fears

Mistaken motivation through years
Frustrated days slowly disappear

Don’t turn around
Act surprised

Whole life
Been watching you
As I lie