Para Los Padres

Fathers’ Day Weekend 2013

Throwback isolation 4 walls
At your request for a moment to breathe

Cloudy emotions mixed up mental
Everyday celebrates your wonderful blessings

Just be thankful for all you got
in two blinks all that positivity can stop

Trips around origins signifies you been
Going in circles

Looking for what been lost
Cost of otherside fork
Too much you could never handle

Easy to ramble about close calls
Tight gambles house always wins
Easy to get locked on couch
Never head out
Even though beautiful days await

Hope you have been given foundation
Begin life’s legacy of healthy memories
Rising steadily overflow eye dams

Drip down invisible masks no livable past
Painful present with fatalistic future

Nurture opposite of pessimistic visions
Release your demons to escape
Lonely prisons

You will be able to hold your son’s hand tighter

Please gather the strength to become a better man
Lover scholar fighter
Soldier rock comforter role model

Not another so called leader whose message rings hollow
Years later no solid reflection to follow

Don’t run from your responsibility
Embrace the challenge

Amari wants to learn from you
Give him proper guidance

For thriving not just simple survival
Your presence and energy is vital

Be of sound mind healthy body developing soul
Forever in control aware of your surroundings

Keep good company proudly introduce your people
Don’t let your honorable history be a burden
A mystery allows you to turn from prior mistakes

Triumphs stand tall
Never slump chump

Essence got so much funk ritmo
Shake that good foot

Jump to grab a star from the sky to light up the earth
Cada cabeza es un mundo

Found my connection to multiverse
Keeping love in constant rotation

Your truest smile
Demonstrates infinite worth

Sale ahorita

Can never leave

Anticipation of too much to come

Want a part of the action

Even though bell ringing

I’m still here searching working on a masterpiece

Won’t cast a jinx black cloud

Trademarked frownys scowl across brown triangle

Love peace happiness

Bulldozed rose bush

Remember EVERYTHING you can

For time remaining

How much more explaining does divine

Has to remind you on daily

No failing admitting shortcomings long goings

Carrying dropping logs

Science building less destroying

Employing abilities in tune with faculty

Streak of independence

Abolish referendum asking you for more freedom

Seeking royalty within reflection

Please don’t get too twisted

So your movements are impaired

Life is dark project stairs

Where everyone stares at the ground

Sky is too bright

Even hurts to look at your shadow

Pour a gallon of your regret in the gutter

So you could regurgitate all the hate

Painful poison numb your own noise

Complex symphony glorious ghetto imagery

Broken hearted window symmetry

Jagged dagger sympathy

Grand dragon government wizardry

Hunger howl til echoes in brain

Heavy steady burden higher burning

Halfway learning leads to weak application

Wandering while rambling

Unfocused mission statement

Copy that carbon footprint

Matching unique finger

Be the suit not that hanger

Make the beat write the song

Construct a banger top pop chart

Chopped slopped

Spark after screw rolled a lil loose

Almost like a lil space in noose

Slight dash of lies with harsh truth

Candles won’t provide proper wattage

Only back to essence origin

Where we all started

Individual to collective

Stark difference illustrate perspective

Color shades dimensions

All the jails our minds kept in

Isolated direction

Without opportunity to network

Make connections

Look in eyes to acknowledge existence

Absolute miracles we are still living

Lift a glass burn for those gone

We always mourn but

Celebrate a chance to smile and laugh

Funny how fast our magical lives pass

Smack City

Smacked lifted

charged up non pg 13 version of explicit life

turn off lights but keep electricity flowing

enough to return in one piece

to explain origin of debauchery

taught to see stranger danger

as they plot long range

hard to rearrange pieces to fractured skull

when push pull factors have been negated

frustrated gentrification creeper faster

than dust on face hard to run race

when every move is watched

who is forgotten when only faded mural remains

emptiness riding on desolate train

kids gone blown past curfew

stuck molly in butthole

still channel surfing bad girls club

gangland teen mom

ring alarm media brainwashed youth

metaphysical parody oppression psychological

grey clouds pits stink smell

like harsh truth light henny

an existential abyss

doing more pullups than pushdowns

upchuck purging poisons

add antipathy for cold antipasto of apathy

laugh at our own demise

complicit with early ending

far from happy

good doctor said peace is absence of tension

backedup rage won't let page turn

when mirror reflects blank stares

gave 2 thumbs up for instant approval

stark perusal at bleak record on repeat

gravitational pull falling apart from center

half was a mistake

other you don't remember

brown skin baby...

Because you are brown

You were born in a trap

Set whenever you attempt

To obtain your freedom

Looking like a new book

New friends new mind

Trap says you can’t do it

You are not smart enough

You are not beautiful enough

You are never enough

You believe every doubt

As easily as you eat

Because you are depressed

You don’t even try to smile

Frown at your future

Fall in love with false philosophy

Feel like presence doesn’t matter

So might make self disappear

In a heartbeat

Because you never listened to wind screaming

Your life matters

But only if you love this moment

Make an infinity of right nows

Probably manana

Because you write you have to

Love palabras

Show silence exactly how you feel

Violence tries to kill everything

You already sacrificed

Because you thought twice

In that blink bounced

Better opportunities to build community

You need to start giving more hugs and kisses

Daps and pounds

Attack what attempts to censor your every measure

Gain knowledge wisdom from each lecture

Because you were stuck behind forced to play catch up

Game is over once final buzzer rings

Overtime when successful strategy get applied

Because you are tired too sleepy

To finish the work you have started

Rest in power to dearly departed

Welcome to babies who just arrived

Because you are breathing

Born to survive beyond ghetto existence

Next level constant elder elevation

Because you are loved

You must manifest

Ancient ancestors liberation

Blood humming inside you

Because you are here

You are vital to us

Because you are my familia

You have mi amor and trust

ju heard?

You heard

Dame la botella so we can get right

Pour me a swig so we wavy boi

Pause so I can get a sweet flick

I’ll swing all over the bars

Just to make a public spectacle

No belt

See my sweaty wedgie

Fuck it top 5 who really cares

We doing pole tricks til we get to the city

Watch out

I wanna bust my ass and look foolish

Clueless we dropping liqs everywhere

No respect for NYC

The city shits on me

Why I gotta care for someone else

Once I become major league

Gonna be a guaranteed block party

For everyone each night

I know the hood fucked up like me

Prospects for future all time high

I can get off ten deep on one bluntville

Ain’t nobody got time to be relearning shit

I already forgot

We out to the otherside

To do absolutely nothing

While saying very little

Although we gonna be loud as fuck

Costs to be down with cool kids

Privilege means you got responsibilities

And shit like that

None of them can fulfill

Except eager stereotype

You reject and confirm as you burn

Before during and after school

Lunch never tasted so good

Understand life expectancy of hood

Is hush conversation so consciousness

Camouflaged like cargos carrying nothing

Let’s make it happen

Chasing empty dreams on a path to perdition

In unjust system showtime with street rhythm

Brolic with nonsense to get most attention

Pretending never concerned

But deep down scorned by scars

That won’t heal

Won’t get too deep to reveal

Precise autobiography you don’t deserve

The truth only censored

730 act designed to convince you

Lack of currency urgently hiding

Courage easy to procrastinate

Except you are no longer young

With fewer options

Death has knocked too many times

You never cashed a blank check

Written to you dropped from holy heaven

You don’t believe in self

Much less fake friends

How will you make it

All depends

mira esas caras

Look at those faces

Mira esas caras

El cielo winks and smirks

Got me believing Divine

Had fingers crossed when he was making us

Promises he would eventually keep

Did your hustle add up to enough merit

Gifted and talented status that distances you

From your hood hardly recognizing your roots

You was on the block they discussed in class

And didn’t find any of those pathologies or theories

Cited in academic articles footnoting your faith

Laughed at lectures because professor ideas were all wrongly

Based on faulty research

Patriarchal genocidal white supremacy

Hierarchy fallacy of savage natives

When all they do is take our creation

Wonder why we so impatient

We living on borrowed time

Was loaned Smoking Lovely

Was supposed to return it in two weeks

Overdue charges

Were worth all the bad credit

Need to chill soak in the ocean skin a sponge

Heart a drum to make the waves

Crash against mind’s shore

Memories overflood motivation

Until immobilized watching the movement maintain

While yall were up in VIP

We were behind the velvet rope in the rain

Hoping to shimmy shoulders until sweaty

Shake off ancient oppression lethargic lint

Clinging to static shock as erratic clock

Second hand skips precious few moments to never return

All that privilege low on totem pole

What did weactually learn as the mundo turned

What did we shout to make the world stop spinning

Silent screams won’t deliver destiny

Exclusive 16s might make you platinum

The sun will give you a shout out

Only if you up in time to hear lovely livelification

Don’t let that determination turn drowsy

Beautiful day even if it’s cloudy

Sky said what’s good fuck your frownys

Don’t slide with fiction stay true to your honesty

Any probably should be most definite certainty

Universe has no sense of urgency

But a thunderous cackle at your agonizing absurdity

Mumbling your definition fumbling with your tradition

Bopping on the block please stop bullshitting

It’s raining because Jesus Christ

Crying at how we living

peace chewy, mr. h, biggz, shyne, s gramz, every other shorty.

Yung Boi Swag

How you get fucked up in your own dreams

Fist moving mad slow

Aggy cuz I can’t G mack

One day I want a scar right above my eye

If you go in gotta be hard

No soft punk shit boi

I got that matrix swag

Flipping on these bitches cuz

I’m never cuffin my chat game wavy

Silva surf on dumb smut

For enough brains to make me smart

Sucka wanna front got the ratty on deck

Hammer make your brains spill

Until I catch a victims respect

Street sweeper will clear the block up

Fiends need fresh work for me to chop up

How you figure I’ma get locked up

Nah that’s for stupid dudes trying to get caught

My thoughts is worth millions

Mind built for the highlights of the game

Hood is lame I’m loyal to me

Purpose son is to keep shining and stay free

Young and wild be this way

Forever until infinity

Chill why you trying to play me

Curious about the corner

Don’t try to violate

I’m bout to fix and wash you up real clean

Brolic monster about to go

Funkmaster Flex and HAM on you

Aight then how you feel

Mental mixxy off what I’m sipping

Toxxie my liver finished

They watching too many movies

Trying to be characters

Bootleg on the avenue

Would let you know what the shit

Is about but you ain’t seen it yet

So I don’t wanna blow it up

Don’t hold up roll up

Put your true feelings in the sky

Be real with the mirror so the universe

Will see your honesty clearly

What will be the final verdict

On that exclusive you haven’t even heard it

Hip hop quotables verses hot fire

Enough to melt freezing temperature

In middle of corazon

I will squeeze first then run