4.13.2010

Mourning




Mourning


 


I have lost more poems


Than I have scribbled


Midnite moments evaporate


Into memories of coulda been hits


I swear that shit was hot


 


Imagine the masterpiece


Theatre presentation you missed


In your mind countless ideas


Circle like autumn fallen leaves


The gaggle of geese are giggling


The flocks of birds holla


ayo in different pitches


 


you are accused of not being


prolific so specific yet vague


still talking yet to explain


in tune with sounds of nature


dehydration of desire


dedicated to dumb shit


more intelligent to be irrevelant


 


you wonder why your Pops


was in love with Jonathan Livingston Seagull


as you see gulfs between each other


ships passing blindly through day


chips devoured by night


unshakable hunger consumes


or at least is telling you to


 


continue though doubtful


a challenge to balance


like video games with broken controller


you are the sole owner of your soul


hard to believe


you might have to gas yourself up


to acknowledge the actual fact


in the mirror that can’t break


 


no mistakes jinx or bad luck


gotta keep it moving can’t be in same spots stuck


nice to visit give daps what up


same shit just a different horizon


what’s surprising is your threshold


for physical pain is papercuts


but your emotions are enlarged


across concrete canvases


 


merely bandages on leaking wounds


sky staring at you stars wide open


moon sticking tongue at you


like Cam said U mad?


Stretch out tight fibers


That cause you to shiver at your shadow


Quiver at the street magic


Of motion disappearing into fat air


 


Last light from Harlem


Fighter plane above


How can you refuse the wind


Ever abandon love


Not for a second just blink to get reminded


Of how truth tastes bittersweet


Accept it though stubborn


 


Shut thunder up born


Embrace your muse pushing you


To higher galaxies


If you went outerspace you might


Pass away cause you failed astronomy twice


Fingers frozen chosen to scribe you to survive


Behind every door there’s an open mic


Just for you to find it and love


It always feel so right













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