12.31.2004
i will be enjoying the good company of negra modelo
this fine evening/don't drink and drive
live tonite
it has been a crazy year
for everyone
some of us made it
maintaining as always
cojelo con take it easy
feeling very good right now
thanking the lord that i'm still standing
on two feet and able to open eyes
see life and feel alright once in a while
there is no time like the present
the present your presence is a present
a gift to be cherished and used
appreciate it
love it
hold it
use it wisely
try to have fun with it
make more moments
keep it moving in the o nickel yall.....get at me we got big work to do in the near future. all the talent we need and our dreams are right around the corner.
pa'lante siempre pa'lante
12.25.2004
hope everyone is enjoying themselves
i'ma bout to blow one outside..
just came back in feeling very nice about life
the best present is each day
being able to open your eyes another sun up
sun down
god bless my mother finishing her masters
god bless my brother living it up in miami
god bless my father for his strength and imperfections
thanks yall for what yall given me
i hope to give you more
happy bday jesus....
signing off in the early morn b4 santa comes through
12.23.2004
life has been good i've been blessed this year to just get through another one. got a laptop and a camera for xmas so i guess i was nice this year. some might disagree.
striving to be the best human being i can be. just trying to continue to grow develop transform and be inspired.
thank you to everyone who has supported me or inspired me in some way this past year. will talk to yall before jesus bday....peace
your boy tone is full of holidaze spirit as the year winds down. this has been a crazy year in the life of me and you have witnessed it here.
let's see what happened: I graduated from Teachers' College, moved on to another school El Puente Academy for Peace and Justice in Williamsburg, BK, finished my book, performed at a bunch of places for many folks, became wiser and more aware of life love and pursuit of happiness, tried to realize my dreams a little more, and continued in the eternal struggle for truth and understanding. Not that bad a year.
For the next one, just hope to build on a solid foundation and strive to become a better human being. Hector Calderon said we are human beings, thus we are continually growing developing and transforming. At times, I get down on myself because of everything I'm not and still don't have, but then I realize that the goal is the journey and things will always move.
As I reflect back on this year, and every other year, I am grateful to have such wonderful people surrounding me, inspiring me constantly and pushing me to succeed. Thank you to everyone I've met, heard, or been inspired by. Let's keep the positive energy moving yall....peace....
12.09.2004
life in december is such a rollercoaster of holidaze.
why is it when things seem like are over they just begin?
kids playing ball behind the crib
hustling all over the city listening to crazy new latin jazz fire and terror squad
went to a CUE seminar on the upper east side very good time and a good chance to build with other teachers.
my knicks are the epitome of up and down
my cat is meowing
its raining and the sky looks angry
shoutouts to pace university and nassau community it was good to build with people
everybody live well this holidaze enjoy life
get bent at your work party
love the people around you
appreciate what you got
ju nefer no
shit so fly
should have wings
and a stewardess with it nucka......
12.01.2004
december already!!! i can't believe it. this year like others has evaporated into thin smoke, but this year especially felt like it moved. pretty good year; graduated from Teachers' College, started working at El Puente, been performing like crazy, been written about a few times, finished the book. i can't complain. next year, hopefully i can just follow the blueprint set up.
Knicks on top of 500 for the first time since like 9/11. crawford is mos def a nut, but if he always hits those shots, take them all day. when houston comes back, i hope that we do our jobs and make it deep into the playoffs.
Performances
today at Nassau Community College
tomorrow at Pace University.
Skidmore was the bomb, as always we had a good time. big ups to my boy akil doing an amazing show up there.
if you in nyc today, wtf was happening with the weather? this morning absolutely pouring now it is sparkling outside.
things in the system:
diesel, new camron, nas, kayslay, and beats!!!! along with different flavors of dunks!!!!
shoutout to ab lugo playback was incredible bro, you are doing great things.
another shout to the ave magazine, yall will see that exclusive soon.
peace power y palante
11.18.2004
soundview bronx soundview bronx. hopefully that will get people here. i did a quick search for info about my area of the city and didn't realize how much crazy local politics there are. the diaz family runs the local politics and certain people don't like them. i met ruben diaz jr and he was cool, a year or two older than my bro. most defintely have to build with the brother.
story ave is receiving a lot of feedback which is a good thing. any layout folks holla back at me. i'm trying to hook up the cover too.
kay slay v big mike mixtapes: the verdict? that big mike is fire!! i mess with kay slay but sometimes the screaming kills the whole point of the song. i'll take dblock/gunit exclusives way before papoose/dipset exclusives although that cam'ron kanye song is FIRE!!!!!! kanye get at me for real.....
all that band is incredible that show in skidmore is gonna be fire...
slim n*gga that cast a big shadow signing off......
11.17.2004
hope that things have been good. i've been running all over the city trying to make this teacher/artist thing work. el puente is an amazing place and teaching there is a privilege. being able to perform and write poetry is a beautiful thing and i am totally blessed with the chance to share my thoughts with peoples. i try to realize to not take things for granted.
this friday i will be at skidmore college in upstate ny. i'm looking forward to rocking b/c this is like my third or fourth time there. new shit!!!
shout out to the folks i was chilling with yesterday. good sessions, good times.
shout out to the people who have found this page somehow someway.
things i'm feeling this week: new nas album, fresh nike dunk premiums, my laptop, bootleg naughty stuff from 125th, and collected fiction of leroi jones...
peace progress y poder....
11.09.2004
on the bright side, i finally got a laptop, and my baby holds me down. this piece of equipment is probably the flyest thing i own and i'm glad that i finally copped this. long overdue.
on that same note, i most definitely spent too much money this weekend. that's what happens when you try to ball out.
speaking of ball hopefully i've have more positive things to say about my squad, the NY Knicks. I love them and I hate them, the highest paid team in NBA and we are worse than the Bobcats. We should learn a lesson from the Yanks, you can't buy heart. Starbury this is your world!!!!!
so right now finally writing my first post from my laptop in El Puente's computer lab. here's to many more....GO KNICKS!!!! WIN TONITE!!! NYC NEEDS IT!!!
11.05.2004
All that anger, frustration, pain? Use it wisely folks for positive ends.
Like my brother said, who in the lifetime I've known him, has never been as politically aware as I see him now, "it is his country. no more excuses." in other words, he sh*tted in his own bed, now he gotta smell it and try to make his drawers smell snuggle clean. after such a big dump, it ain't gonna be easy for him.
i can't believe i got better grades than this fool at andover. holla at me.
pa'lante mi gente....nunca pa'tras......
11.03.2004
9.26.2004
life has been great just grinding teaching out in BK El Puente is an amazing place. the first week was incredible and went relatively smooth. just trying to do the best i can. friday night went out with my colleagues and explored the williamsburg bars. saturday went out to azaza to celebrate juan carlos' bday and saw all the peoples there. today trying to read some of my students' work. missing my girl and just enjoying each day as it comes. those folks who have story avenue please let me know your feed back.
october 1st feature at the nuyorican e 3rd st btw b +c doors open at 10 pm gonna be live please come through....
in the ears:
jzone a job ain't nuthin but work
foreign exchange connected
dj clue cherry lounge
jlove and suss one tributes to big pun
kayslay and papoose beast from the east
kayslay and alchemist
kayslay long live the king
alchemist 1st infantry crazy!!!
alchemist 2cd from jarmz instrumentals
any reggaeton i can get my hands on (oye mi canto and gasolina and pobre diabla)
shoutouts to bonafide i finally got a chance to read pelo bueno and i hope my book can be even half as nice....
important: http://www.freeiPods.com/default.aspx?referer=9662950
sign up and refer your peoples for a free ipod. I don't know if this works yet but let's see and try to get this sh*t working. only catch seems that you gotta sign up for columbia house or BMG. let's go!!!
The Yanks are doing big things. Even Roy Jones was forced to lean back (now twice).
http://crookedtongues.com/
http://www.sneakerfreaker.com/
http://www.freshnessmag.com/
http://www.air-jordans.com/ok_index.html
for the official info on sneakers check out these links...i was blown away....
www.mixunit.com - for latest mixtapes....
peace folks get at me drop me a line just say hello....verizon shut me down temporarily...
9.15.2004
yesterday was one of the fullest days of my young life. I had my first day of classes with el puente students and it was real. got to know a bunch of youngsters from brooklyn. today we are doing an election teach in and my workshop is called hiphop and politricks.
then i went over to barnard computer to print out some poems for last nite's performance and some old b*tch runs up on me like who are you? if you are supposed to be helping someone, open up by saying how can i help you please. gotta deal with the not so subtle racism on the daily.
finally, the blue ox last nite. intensely incredible. the open mic was sick, everyone killed it. my parents were in the house along with my girl, the homies, and good people. the stars were in alignment for a great night of poetry. i tried to do my best considering i had a long day and by the time i got to the mic, i was exhausted. but the lyrical adrenaline started pumping and it was on. i blazed through a bunch of new stuff and i think peoples was feeling me. I recorded the whole performance. I told my parents i was about to get real with La Historia de Mi Corazon pt1 and 2. everything was beautiful and then for the first time ever in my life at a poetry event, i saw people thumping. it was even more real because these brothers are like family. only familia can do that. i hope that everybody involved is okay and whatever was the conflict is resolved and put it the past b/c acentos is too real for some petty beef. It is a beautiful space and doing righteous things.
pa'lante siempre pa'lante pana
9.13.2004
check it out folks.
tomorrow night sept 14th acentos blue ox 140th & 3rd come through 7pm for dope open mic and then morales on the feature tip..lotta new sh*t...holla at your boy...peace
9.05.2004
-props to james madison university in harrisonburg va. had a great time out there...good luck to all the future teachers! props to kayo...
-props to boogie for the chance to perform in washington square park along with kahlil...excellent performance.
-props to karen jaime for the chance to rock the freshman orientation at nyu. big ups to desiree, carlos gomez, august, and jive poetic and many others for a memorable night...
happenings: the convention was absolutely horrible, the elephants in their high glory patting each other on the back for not doing sh*t. sunday's ufpj protest was amazing just like the one in feb/mar 2003 against the war. got into a shouting match with the conversative corner. crazy to see two colored people there so as I shake my head in disgust the dude starts singing que bonita bandera and says hey I'm boricua too papi! I'm an educated spic you should be over here! my how they have brainwashed you brother.
went to my brother's wedding (half Michael Jr) reception at villa barone the same spot where I had my 8th grade prom(maria cruz date). seen my uncle richie grandma esther aunt lucy and other people that I hadn't seen since my parents split up. f*cked how you don't speak to people for like 10 years, but they smile like they seen you yesterday. I'm a grown man, time heals most wounds.
pops was there in full effect with anonymous younger woman tearing up the dance floor. open bar was wild and the mc was getting the crowd hype with old school salsa and classic hiphop.
then I went to my boy drew's mother's wedding reception in darien ct. stark contrast backyard in mansion. had a good time chilling lighting up with jonathan b/sing with the peoples.
Congratulations to my peoples Nick and Nina for the soon to be addition to the family.
in the ears eyes mind: (movies albums dope sh*t)
foreign exchange (phonte nicolay banger)
jim jones on my way to church (dipset piff!!)
beatnuts milk me (da nuts!!! down is classic)
latino blue note
akil dasaan's new album
jackson 5
ali vegas (this kid's a problem)
papoose (watch out)
nicotina (mexican snatch)
te doy mis ojos
harold and kumar !!!!!
murda muzik (ghetto classic)
$2 de la vega tshirt
sick new balance
anything by adriana sage
trying to finish the masterwork yall. hopefully by the next entry it will be roughly almost exactly where I want to be. wish me luck. also wish me happy birthday b/c i'm trying to be done by the 7th (my 24th bday)
paz y progreso
ps sept 14th acentos blue ox bar 140th & 3rd ave ( 6 train to 138th)
october 1st nuyorican poets cafe 3rd st btw b + c ( f train to 2nd ave)
a classic yall
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Where are My Boricuas?
I’m looking for my people
Have you seen where they went?
Miro por un lado y por otro
y no veo nadie
They are not here
I’m inspired by stoned crazy prophets
of revolution/giving poetic solutions
to political pollution of a United Steaks
nation of eggs cheese and bacon upon wakin’
Monday morning still dealing
with another Puerto Rican Obituary
Kevin Michael Hector Luz Maria
all died today will die again tomorrow
dreaming bout Miami Beach Memorial Day Weekend
new Jordans Timbos Clue Tape tattoo on back
new lease next flip QP on OT
party @ Latin Quarters and Jimmys
and the Parade
La Bodega Sold Dreams
looseys 40s pantyhose liters of milk Dutches
I seen my muneca mulatta under moonlight
this was the making of a cuchifrito love affair
taking me from Loisaida to Spring Garden Philly
to Albizu Campos Blvd in Chicago
Young Lords set it off
sanitation strikes cleaned streets
claimed Dona Libertad
ended up in rehab broadcasting the news
reborn struggle in Vieques
navy bombing bones of protestors underground
neighbors surround in vigil of cancer stricken children
population was problem
police patrol poolrooms poverty plateau
plantations pulverized families polarize
Operation Bootstrap
Pan Tierra Libertad
Bread Land Liberty
no confession to sterilization killing spree
or military state
Palm Sunday Massacre 1937
Jayuya to Don Pedro
everyday’s a birthday with America
We of marinated blood on machete minds
telenovela nobility
como pajaros en cielo mobility
cinquillo salsa boom bap
mofongo mantequilla melts magic on toasted bread
halos circle our heads
151 soaks for the dead
leather palm slaps skin
hear miky tito albizu and pun’s whispers in the wind
Albizu
When tyranny’s law revolution is order
Motherland must be loved as a woman is loved
spiritually physically
she’s not open to discussion
if so then with bullets
Miky
It’s like the reincarnation of the night
before when my ashtray became
a cemetery for all my lost memories
Understand you? If wasn’t trying I would have killed you
stone dead punk
Tito
Oye como va
Mi ritmo bueno pa gozar mulatta
Pun
Cash pays and rules/root of all evil/shoot on amigos/
for loot and perico polluting our people
Enter my world of doom/consume fear feel the panic/
ram a lightning bolt between Earth Moon Stars
curl the planet
Where are my Boricuas?!
Aqui mismo
Mi gente
Pa’lante siempre pa’lante
8.18.2004
had lunch with willie out there (props) and the ball needs to move. NOW.
great things about my PR trip:
-the Puerto Rican basketball team slayed the Dream Team 2k4 by like 19 points. Carlos Arroyo is the man and I need that jersey.
-my first Medalla Light.
-numerous Presidentes
-Museo de la Herencia Africana. Check it.
-El Batey bar and lounge.
-Rumba bar and lounge.
-taking public transit out there. 25cents for a bus!! F*ck $2!
-two great movies: Alien v Predator, hilarious if you love both those movies. another much more serious, Te Doy Mis Ojos, a Spanish movie about abusive relationships. Both movie tickets: $5 each. Movie food including popcorn, nachos (my girl), gummi snacks and soda: $7. What a country!
-Caleta de las Monjas. Nice apartment, cheap price. Shoutout to Justin and Kelly two dudes from NC staying in a closet. No, literally. If people ever want to stay in PR for a decent price, check out. www.thecaleta.com
-Condado, Ocean Park, Isla Verde beaches contributing to me looking a lot less palefaced.
-linking up with Abdel, Manuel, Miguel (vamos pa blunt), Kiara (un exchange), and Gargs (Angel Boricua Fall'95 founder of Mu Chapter)
-los gatitos de San Juan Gate living life to the fullest
-Casa de Don Q. the realest rum in the world. free drinks everyday.
-BarraChina, El Parador, Cafe Puerto Rico, and of course the world famous La Bombonera.Why don't they have Mallorcas here in NYC?
-Duty Free Store!!!
-so much more stuff I can't think of now b/c of that fire last night, but I will leave you with this image: a huge sign in the airport saying: It is illegal to carry pigeon peas on your trip. Prohibido traer gandules.
F*ck Rosello! Que Viva Puerto Rico Libre!
8.02.2004
“Sensacional cuando salio en la madrugada, a mediodia ya la noticia confirmada, en la tarde materia olvidada”---Periodico de Ayer, Hector Lavoe
i feel like posting things that make me think so they make you think....that's where i'm headed....
the reverend's last interview...he prescribes what our future should be.....
"First draft is you scribbling it on a notebook, or a paper, or a napkin and you read it there. And if you make mistakes, man, it makes the poem much more interesting and exciting, and that’s when history started being made....Spanglish is not an indication of an inferior mind, but it is an indication of an imagination that should be completely fertile. You got to be brilliant, not dumb!...I want to get better. I am getting better, but not by following orders. I have to do my own thing..... There’s no end to the phenomenon, The First Draft Nuyorican Poetry Movement."
props to acentos...new shit!!!
-ma dukes-
life
is a
kick
in the
cunt
-stuck-
sometimes
the greatest feeling
is feeling everything
at once
or
nothing at all
-artistic integrity-
f*ck you
if
reading this
hurts
your sensibilities
of
my capabilities
-get the drop-
fams
watch
your back
front
and sides
cops be
everywhere
looking at us
just for chilling
don't sleep
I Was My Own Route (Yo misma fui mi ruta)
Julia de Burgos
I wanted to be like men wanted me to be:
an attempt at life;
a game of hide and seek with my being.
But I was made of nows,
and my feet level on the promissory earth
would not accept walking backwards
and went forward, forward,
mocking the ashes to reach the kiss
of new paths.
At each advancing step on my route forward
my back was ripped by the desperate flapping wings
of the old guard.
But the branch was unpinned forever,
and at each new whiplash my look
separated more and more and more from the distant
familiar horizons;
and my face took the expansion that came from within,
the defined expression that hinted at a feeling
of intimate liberation;
a feeling that surged
from the balance between my life
and the truth of the kiss of the new paths.
Already my course now set in the present,
I felt myself a blossom of all the soils of the earth,
of the soils without history,
of the soils without a future,
of the soil always soil without edges
of all the men and all the epochs.
And I was all in me as was life in me .. . .
I wanted to be like men wanted me to be:
an attempt at life;
a game of hide and seek with my being.
But I was made of nows;
when the heralds announced me
at the regal parade of the old guard,
the desire to follow men warped in me,
and the homage was left waiting for me.here
this is how it is/was supposed to be for me
wide open spaces alive broken places
glass bottle tops empty snack boxes smashed cups
queen w/ filthy mouths dirty water dogs
old youths new handshakes future balers
raid lunchrooms for milkcrates peers fascinated
by thick loose thighs overpriced trees expensive
cars bootleg brand name clothes bored church
going icy house Astacio overprotected jewels
babies makin babies passion flowers blossom up
history repeats itself tomorrow will be that song
7.29.2004
My students have been working really hard this summer, and I want to give a big shout out to everyone who has discovered the Poetry is Life::Life is Poetry continuum. We read crazy poetry, watched Pinero and Slam, performed our own stuff, made some new friends, and became inspired. I learned a lot from watching and listening to yall- the next generation of Columbia graduates. Hold it down, make it happen. Tonight is your night.....Punto!
Gonna pop up soon, don't worry bout the kid.
-Damn-
If
you knew
what you know
when we needed
to know it
why
did
n't
you say
anything
7.22.2004
saw bad boys of comedy a series that puff is putting together. was funny! especially my dog scratch off. "Say It"!
anybody saw def poetry? was pretty good hoping it can be better. it is crazy how the show is shaping people's lives in the poetry racket. for some it is positive exposure. others i'm left thinking what the f*ck are you doing on there and then you are going to blow up? damn where's the cottonpicking justice? it is all good. props to mayda, flaco, lemon and everyone else who is real on the show.
message to young poets. def poetry is cool, take it from me, but if you not on again, everybody asks, "yo when you gonna be on the show again? that shit was hot fams!"
chicharrons for thought
-the roots album is growing on me, but i'm sick that they left two songs off the us release. wtf?
-i' robot was on point except for gratitious will smith nude scenes.
-why haven't the knicks traded for anyone yet?
-soulstrut.com for your music needs.
-going to see maria full of grace tonite. go check it out.
-puerto rico in a few weeks. can't wait. don't think i'll be reading out there, but whatever.
holla at cha boy.
7.16.2004
random sh*t: the Roots album is FIRE, Kenny Dope Mixtapes are blazing, anybody who does poetry workshops holla at me, any journals get at me for submissions, any producers scream at me with a beat, the Knicks f*cking suck we need somebody soon, F*ck Miami and Shaq where's the justice 10 years after Pat Riley faxes his resignation he gets the best player in the game.
started my poetry class at columbia with the OPUS students. they are a cool bunch of young adults trying to adjust to the beast that is the first year of college especially at an Ivy league jumpoff. I feel like we have been doing incredible work and they have come a long way from the beginning. I'm definitely not giving them the conventional sh*t, I'm str8 up f*cking with their ideas of ars poetica. Peace to yall the talent show is coming up soon.
Also kicked it with my bro who came back into to town. got the chance to listen to some new sh*t, kick rhymes, build, ride around blaze and go to the copa on the last night he was here (tuesday 7/13). it was mad packed the drinks were in the system and it was peace.
in between all that went back up to my high school, Phillips Academy in Andover, MA to do a poetry workshop. People who know me know that I got better grades than President Bush there and I've had to bust my ass infinitely more harder than he has. Props to Lou Bernieri and the Andover Bread Loaf Program providing a writing summer session for kids from Lawrence schools. I always do an annual writing workshop with them and the teachers as well. This year I felt like I could really speak with some authority because I got my Master's and I have experience in the classroom. Also props to Logan and Dave, I had a great time in Jamaica Plains at Steve's party. Shout outs to Jose Dobles and Thuy, hope we can link up soon.
I'll be around the city folks so holla at me, I'll be writing on this more often.
The book is still coming.
Ms Baker Miss U already
palante
7.05.2004
what the f^ck is happening to the yanks? i know the mets fans are crazy hype and so are the redsox fans but it all comes down to october kid. i think we have a pretty good history there.
the fireworks were dope. the best seat in the house in front of the TV away from the police chillaxing as my kids would say.
go see "the first year" a documentary about the first year of teaching in california. doesn't get as real as my first year but all in all, anybody thinking about teaching should definitely peep it.
I have the new Roots album. i'm trying not to pass judgement but Star and Why? are definitely worth the purchase.
Saturday nite at the Nuyorican hardly anyone there but a great event. Karen Jaime, Kayo, Nathan P, Ian, Chief, Akil Dasaan, Pepe, Julio, Rocky, and other peoples all made the night worthwhile. Read some new sh!t from a one man show with an aspiring rapper character. Riding the D train tipsy listening to new Terror Squad and watching amateur porn film festival awards made it an alright evening.
get
the
f^ck
OUTTA
HeRe
7.03.2004
waiting on the knicks to do something
waiting on the roots album to drop
waiting to go to puerto rico
waiting to light something
waiting to create
waiting to wait
waiting til break of dawn
waiting to move beyond
wanting to chill
trying not to chill
trying to live ill
waiting til the next check
wanting to get another one
waiting for the return of pun
trying to spit in the tradition of the great one
wanting to rub the shine of the sun all over
feeling blessed to see one more day
trying to do what i can
wanting to do more
6.28.2004
go see fahrenheit 9/11. wasn't blown away by the information, but more so how he framed his argument that bush was down all along. the idiot is wiser than we think and he is being manipulated by a bunch of people. go check out project for the new american century. you will see some familiar names who ride with bush. yes the movie is biased but what film is not? what sort of media is not biased? i just so happen to share the slant so i like the jawn.
Shoutout to people i saw at 106th and Park not BET but the graffiti hall of fame which every year gets repainted and sprayed. some ill designs out there.
tried playing some ball and running a mile. whew. i'm feeling more and more like al bundy everyday.
i'll be at the nuyorican july 3rd for an event with kayo. real cool brother and excellent poet. looking forward to the gig.
it has been a crazy two year journey in this teaching thing. incredible high even worst lows i can't call it. just looking forward to the summertime with my books, journals and lady.
those people who i've wanted to talk to forever, now is the time to holla. I got nothing but time.
en la lucha
6.21.2004
being broke is a thing of the past. unfortunately, the past is still here in the present and i'm tired of that sh*t. financial stability has to happen soon.
i don't know if i'll be doing that movie this summer. homegirl is frontin' for real, and i know i want my pieces back if it is not jumpin off.
go see napoleon dynamite. sometimes i feel as awkward as that kid.
sorry bronx prep. life is too crazy right now for me to try to a good job there. invite me back.
sorry amex. thanks for understanding.
cop that jadakiss album. everybody should be up on "Why?" one of the most flavor songs i've heard in a while. also Havoc did the beat. "by your side" is the jumpoff.
lloyd banks. the verdict is still out, but he did not disappoint me as bad as canibus. when he gets deep, he is his most lyrical.
papoose- the next dude. verbally sicker than most nyc mixtape rappers. i just hope it translates into a good album.
go check out daphatspot.com in my links page. you can get much of the stuff i listen to over there.
in the ears:
kon & amir transeuro pop express
zoilo esta en el bano - salsa afro beat mix
masta killa album
lloyd banks
jada champ is here & kiss of death
big pun capital punishment
j armz how to be an mc 19
in the mind:
hip hop story by heru ptah
smoking lovely by willie perdomo
immigrant iceboy bolero by martin espada
story avenue by anthony morales (constant reading!!!)
stay up...til the next session...
6.14.2004
-tuesday rich villar's feature at the blue ox. crazy next level niceness. rich is one of the coolest most genuine people in the scene. big ups to all the acentos poets. i was truly inspired.
thursday went with ejima to see rupee, my first soca concert ever. if i could compare him with anyone it would be kevin little of turn me on fame. good night.
-friday my boys threw me a party @ azaza on the 50th. everything was great had my own drink (orange pina vodka) and mad peeps there. shoutout to ejae my girl's sister. i had a great time until there was drama. props to hibi, yaqub, drew, and everyone else i can't remember right now.
-saturday after recovering from friday, just chilled. got the new jada and lloyd banks along with jarmz vol 19. chilled with juma waugh and called it an early night.
-sunday saw control room a documentary about aljazeera. if folks haven't heard about this most definitely check it out. it will shape how you see the US media that's for sure. then just chilled out and saw the lakers lose. i can't feel bad for the bball yankees.
check out: hiphop story by heru ptah
real men do yoga
the ecstatic by victor lavalle
daphatspot.com
buzzflash.com
book is coming. holla.
6.03.2004
Haze Hi/Lo
eyes glazed
& red
from too many
blunts to the head
lids heavy
neck nod
all that purp smoke
thought you saw God
no ill fitted
crisp white tee
brand new kicks
dipped out gear
will make
you be
what you
could have been
-Morales, 2004
one more.....
What’s really good
Life love livin’
real talk not that much
you aint kiddin’
Money when it’s here
when the police aint out
nothin’ to fear
bein’ here another year
that kid from 7 corners
day care with the wavy hair
My smile on a bad day
My frown on a good day
all those hours
clouds broken by the sun
when we gotta
no longer run eatin’
crib Mistolin fresh
clothes creased
cut crispy
crema con dulce
dutches twisted right
sessions where we rhymed
all night
if I got what I want
even if I did not
every second I feel watched
from up above He is my Guide
last for the crew
skeleton bones
in crowded closets
We survived
-Morales, 2004
if yall was here yesterday quick change up but back to the real. i keeps the blogs gully. holla @ me. uno.
6.02.2004
sometimes butterflies
dance around the discotec
called my courage
higheredhaiku
cono que hay mucho
crackers to'ito Yanqui
blanquitos thick here
5.25.2004
Pops: Corey: Me Now
You taught me to shoot free throws John Barry
Shoulders slouched from burden to carry
staying strong when eyes get teary
souls broken windy and weary
You taught I’m like god
so when I spoke others would fear me
above anyone else
before loving another must love oneself
strength detoriated
then regained health
Viceroys 22s other women
sucking your wealth
Knowledge wisdom understanding
all a part of creator’s masterplan
in the game of life
I asked you what is it
to be a Nuyorican man?
He said
I chose your name wash away pain and evils
in my brain
Little frame contains
passion rhythm sorrow in veins
I prayed every night you would not be
the same
Anthony
Almighty alchemy
No more nights of nothing
Turning tides times tumbling
Hello hope
Open ocean
Natural nocturnal
Elegance eternal
Tony reverse
y not
question each lesson
Upon looking at life’s contract
I developed cocker spaniel cataracts
iris milky like magical antidotes
glassy eyes
mirrors of my people’s hope
so why vote?
Blue note atmosphere
Ra said no joke
Sky sheds bloody tears
looks broke
empty pocket clouds out like tongues
when windy
I shake like puddles rippling
open field nostril flare
tremble as flames light personal trees
in shaking shadows
degrees drop deferred dreams
drown deez drip like leaky faucets
annoying sirens shatter silence
smoke slides violently
Violet dusk dances over orange cherry streetlights
Memories are piss colored with time
like brittle pages of dusty books
Tomorrow is a bounced check
Shiny rubbery basketball
In the winter
dribbling with gloves
no fingertips
Hard to have a grip
when filled with many vices
F*ck it
Life is one big roll of the dice
5.24.2004
industry rule 4080 haikus
where is my paper
i've been waiting on this check
seems like forever
do you understand
this is bizness not pleasure
don't want to get rude
COD EZ
off the books no wack taxes
str8 up what it is
playin with money
is f*cking with emotions
i don't like to cry
the number one thing i hate about this biz is how long you have to wait to get a check for a gig. that's why whenever i do something by myself i get the money or check DAY OF performance. that way after i ripped down your school, i get my money. everyone's happy not like me waiting forever.
if anyone has heard of me through def poetry, migente, a performance @ your school and want me back there holla @ antmoralesnyc@hotmail.com
peace folks
luchando, ant
5.21.2004
as much as i like blogs, there is an element of overcommunication with this. some people try to put every detail of their lives on this thing, me, i just try to hit yall with the daily update and perhaps some words of wisdom. but i definitely have to step up the blogging grind.
i love this spoken word performance game, but the part i hate is waiting on paper. checks should have been in my pockets a while ago.
please don't vote for bush. i got better grades than him.
if you haven't heard WHY? by Jadakiss/Anthony Hamilton cop any new mixtape...crazy..
get at me folks i haven't heard from many of you in too long.
ant
5.17.2004
You can take the person out the ghetto but you can’t take the ghetto out the person. I’ve been to a typical New England Boarding School - Andover - and an Ivy League institution - Columbia University - and I still feel like if I go crazy tomorrow, you will find me on a corner or near a park’s benches - zoned out mumbling or shouting one of my poems. Not that my sh*t is classic material that you can mouth off & people will finish your sentences, but to me it gets no realer because I know everything that I write about.
We need to put some type of order to the chaos of everyday living & I do that by bridging the gaping gaps left by my lower miseducation. I need to see life happening while routine is in place. Mostly everyone’s past is fractured in some hairline or compound way. The real question is how do we place the jagged edges back together? Overlap is sometimes okay but we don’t want no black holes we can’t return from either.
Before we can accept our oppressors, we must see ourselves purely and examine the ways we’ve been tainted. Me - by this point all the good/bad parts are together blurred into non descript emotion that causes me sometimes to feel frozen & I be shivering in the sun. I wonder how I even have the language to tell you this pain. That saying it would have been better to be blind than to see the ugly realness of reality - I do be feeling that way because so many folks I see not even questioning their positions with smiles on their faces while I wallow in empty satisfaction sulking in silence with a chorus of apathetic apologies in hushed harsh tones.
We use history like Dutches unwrap split discard the extra & roll it just right so that we can pull for a while. The Puerto Rican Day Parade is beautiful some don’t even know what the place is or looks like. All we know are coquis coquitos chupacabras chuletas bloody battered bochinche pernil PR Air Force 1s & you can find us screaming Que Bonita Bandera & WEPA til we lose our voices.
The future? That’s a heavy question but let’s hope the answer is a beautiful canela baby eyes like midnite at la playa climbing out of its colonial crib with bars crawling towards the sunset over the projects reaching for the moon while smiling.
-Morales, 2004
5.11.2004
notable times @ columbia university:
*my first day when columbia security threatened to call nypd on me and my mother trying to move in
*zack waldman living right across from me freshman year 747 john jay
*my RA tried to bust me for smoking. dan always hated me and i hope he is living life the way he wants, smoke free
*sneaking out during pledging to see a show at wetlands, and the fiends doped up on the train
*late night munchie runs to koronet and jjs place
*109th and columbus getting knocked for the first time
*my program director telling me it's obvious when people who come from household that typically don't have books are amazed when they see our collection. i understood thank you
*hating almost all my classes except hip hop culture, nicole marwell's independent project, kenneth koch, victor lavalle, families communities as educator and others
*performing at other colleges and schools while trying to finish
*my final paper on nuyorican poetry
i'll write more later....ant
5.05.2004
My Kids
Sterling Cepeda’s dream
Is to be the 2nd Dominican NBA player
after Felipe Lopez and he will have
his own throwback jersey #1
with matching Nike Air Force One
signature shoes
Jonathan Cerda likes to walk
around hallways
white tee looking like a dress
eyes empty looking like stress
Aaron Ramon tells me
I’m not your fams
so please don’t call me that
as he sits in the back of the room
calling girls ugly
reading eye candy in XXL
Class 303 wylin out
not listenin sittin lookin’ at each other
crackin jokes on themselves
never crack a book
or lift a pen to open up
beyond tellin’ everyone to “SHUT UP!!!”
Glorivi Peralta writes that
nobody understands her
She feels like she is large fea (ugly) and dark
so there will never be a boyfriend
but she swears she won’t go crazy again
Brian Rodriguez’s dream is to publish
his first book at the same time
as his platinum 1st album
Available at your local 125th bootlegger
and Barnes & Noble
Jose & Giraldi make fun
and laugh at the fake Dominicanos
who called them hicks
next breath they are
pounding each other
giving free cocotazos
for excusing one another
of tirando peos (throwing farts)
Nilka, Sofia, Arisleidy and Stephanie
Dominicanas En Vogue
sing the last song they heard
en Sajoma before coming to NYC
Norlberto and Luigi download
and bump the latest Tego Guasa Guasa
macking chorties to the rhythm of perreo
Class 203 while typing up
their ESL homework
seranade each other with
Aventura’s Obsesion
Lil Freddy Difo quiere pelear (wants to fight)
con Willy for drawing
a mustache on his mustang
picture he laminated to his desk
all of class 234 echoes his war cry
“Payaso!!” (Clown)
“Mama Huevo!!!”
Class 234 learning English
saying Puddle window
watching feeling
Ms Del Rosario giving them
HW stars and praise for trying
stammering and stumbling
taking their first steps towards
freedom to assimilate
Luy Medina 2 foot fro stutters
when asked the meaning
of freedom but enunciates
Biggie’s Gimme tha Loot
syllable for syllable
Rosylvia Vazquez
says her biggest accomplishment
was the 1st time she moved into
her own room in her own house
after living so long in the shelter
because of landlord arson
Jael Luzon sits in the back of class
watching wind flow outside
I ask him when we will he get started
C’mon you know I don’t mess
with that poetry stuff
I’m gonna be the Dominican Lloyd Banks
The Medrano Sisters
Ninoska big emotions
wide as oceans would write about
her tear drop scars
and future fantasies fulfilled
Francis sickle cell strong
courage creates art & life
through each defiant pencil stroke
Rebecca Garcia & Kedwin Zapata
run after each other
hitting and hugging on the low
when told they will be married
He calls her a wench
She calls him a toad
Sodanys Paulino wanted to live
far far from the hood
Big mansion forty rooms forty bathrooms
enough for kids and family members from
back home
Jonathan V. never wanted to leave the hood
someone might merk him while at
one of those suburb malls
shopping for teddy bears with his son
jealous of his hood richness
Ariel De La Nuez says
he will be a professional flyweight
paper ball fight champ
Kimberly Lopez always remembers
the first time her mother cried
She said it felt like the Polo Grounds
spirits came alive
Yesenia Gutierrez thinks
she gets judged unfairly and mistreated
everyday in school
kids make fun of her
because she is Mexican
Feliciano Perez goes on the internet
to look at pictures of Puebla
and get misty eyed
Elianne Mejia screams in Open Room
just because she gets good grades
don’t make her not cool
She is who she is
& proud/tells Manny that
he is a pussy because he cursed at her
and was absent the next day
Roderick Rasuk will wait
for his mother to give him
fresh white tees and fresh jordans
for failure while she sobs
at Parent Teacher Night about
where he sees himself in 5 years
Maybe dead maybe hustling I don’t know
Terrell Moody is just like his name sounds
Terrell Moody. He was scary too big for his age
Lloking 17 while 12 used to always say
It’s because I’m black right?
Picked Erica Frias, self described
Dominicana princess, up by both arms
and threw her over 2 desks crashing
headfirst into lockers.
He waited to go platinum & be in the NFL
while writing elegant odes to his Nubian sisters
Nicole Owens is a self described
ghetto queen who reads Shel Silverstein
& Nikki Giovanni/ speaks her mind
& thinks about living her dreams
says that all teachers is foul
even they got they own schemes
Ramon Belliard asks me
if he can write about Mephisto
and El Diablo and how the Devil
is about to reign on the world
Derrick Barnes is the next Nas
spitting rapid fire verses
about being broke & hustling
overcoming all struggle
Told me stories about Joe Dirt
the kid who always got sonned
& picked on but rose up
to be the biggest baddest willie on the block
Class 209 Marior Penelope & Daury
describe America
Shut UP America
Go to Hell America
Xenophobic America
Racist America
Why are you so cruel America?
Fat Jessica Sanchez
poured her soul out
in journals scribbled sloppy
spelled culture like KULCHER
as if some villian
sometimes it is
described her heartbreak
from Eric Castro
gave away the only thing she had left
& how her Pops never listened to her
she is expecting late summer
hustler is her husband holdin her down
said her cousin
Edward Perez, fly boy smart tough
young brother wrote deep verses
on wrinkled paper bout trying to
go straight/seen what it was like
in those streets won’t be 3 strikes
seen Moms tears after popped
Walk away young bro
Stay free
Angelicas - there was a few only want
to shout out two in particular:
Angelica Arache aka Princess
Future as bright as smile first one like
Read my poem frustrated with fickle dudes
bum attitudes & shorty what’s your number?
Angelica Matias aka Muneca
talked & cried during lunch periods
Moms was grimy treated her like
used dishrag/used to talk about
haze bags/she thought she might be
butch/relationships she’s the wrong one
to push/cuidado chica
Don’t take on too much
too soon
Ivanna Jimenez cried when she,
honor roll student, class president
teacher helper, daughter of PTA president
got rejected from everyone
of her high school choices
as
Felix Vega, fatboy next level MC
classroom heckler
known to do nothing
jumped up & down
celebrating acceptance to G Dubbz
(George Washington High School)
Leo Sanchez was a ghetto Neruda
writing Love Poetry for crushes
& gospel poetry to unite the people
under GOD/walked with him
back to the crib/there was issues
in the crib/ he was almost cryin
like Morales times is hard
Times is hard
-Morales, copyright 2004
4.30.2004
4.24.2004
Nuyorican Poets' Cafe: 30 Years Running.
by Carlos Vázquez Firpi
The Nuyorican Poets` Café has been a continual hub of cutting-edge artistic exploration since the venue first opened its doors in 1974. Through the years, writers from the likes of Sandra Maria Esteves and Amiri Baraka to Allen Ginsberg and Bob Dylan have paid their dues at the Latino-founded literary institution.
Much has changed from when poet Miguel Algarín first founded the Café in order to give the then-burgeoning Nuyorican literary movement "a locality," as he puts it, "a place where everyone could find themselves at a given time and come together and hear each other." Yet the Nuyorican continues to play a significant role in the careers of up-and-coming spoken-word artists.
Nuyorican Anthony Morales (pictured above) has been performing at the Café since 1997. The 24-year-old South Bronx resident was crowned "Nuyorican Fresh Poet" in 2001 and appeared on the cover of The New York Times Arts section the following year. "The Nuyorican has been vital to my career as a writer and spoken-word artist," says Morales. "I`ve been inspired by the works originated there; but also, the venue has given me the chance to develop my voice and my work. Performing at the Nuyorican has led to many different opportunities for me, such as touring the U.S. and appearing on HBO`s Def Poetry."
As a "street poet," a sharp-eyed chronicler of the Latino community`s experience, Morales follows in the footsteps of two major Nuyorican poet-playwrights: Miguel Piñero and Pedro Pietri. Piñero`s play, "Short Eyes," and Pietri`s poem, "Puerto Rican Obituary," are the most well-known works of Nuyorican literature, and their authors figure as two of the movement`s most prominent authors.
With the deaths of Miguel Piñero in 1988 and of Pedro Pietri earlier this year, it`s largely up to the likes of Morales, Mayda del Valle and Mariposa—second-wave Nuyorican poets, if you will—to keep the literary traditions fostered at the Café alive. But spot-on wordsmiths aren`t the only thing Nuyorican poetry needs. The poetry of major Nuyorican authors like Pietri, Piñero and Esteves deals largely with the experience of Latinos struggling to survive in a world beset by poverty, drug addiction and urban decay.
The Lower East Side neighborhood which houses the Nuyorican is nothing like it was when in 1980, Piñero declaimed: "So please when I die / Don`t take me far away / keep me near by / take my ashes and scatter them thru out / Lower East Side." Gentrification over the last two decades has radically transformed the area from a poverty-stricken, text-book example of urban decay into an overpriced, trendy Mecca for yuppies and wannabe bohemians.
Yet according to Algarín, the shifting Lower East Side landscape shouldn`t pose a problem for the Café. "The most important part of the Café is that it never set out to service a particular grouping or a particular type of poet. It`s a place called poets` Café. I mean, Nuyorican indicates the growing point, the circle. It was not black America or white America, but Puerto Rican poets. But in our pulling together we never saidthat this was exclusively ours."
The growing popularity of Nuyorican Poets` Café-inspired spoken-word poetry is in large part due to the kind of universal acceptance urged on by Algarín. The Café`s role in the slam "movement"—a nationwide phenomenon since 1989—has been central as it is one of the original venues to host such competitions. Films like "Slam" and "Piñero" testify that no movie about the spoken word art form is complete without a scene at the Nuyorican.
On a recent Friday night, it was clear that more people were waiting in line for the ever-popular weekly slam competition than the moderately sized Café could possibly house. But not everyone sees slam competitions as a positive outgrowth of the Nuyorican. Pietri was outspoken about his belief that Nuyorican-style spoken word had gone from a movement to a franchise. Others would contend that the slams are limited in that only a very specific type of poem read by a particular type of poet works in these competitions; and not all poems call for animated readings and not all poets are extroverts.
In his introduction to the seminal "Nuyorican Poetry: An Anthology of Puerto Rican Words and Feelings," Algarín (pictured here)announces that Nuyorican poets must "furnish the information and the vision to empower the underclass to join the mainstream and reinvigorate the American temper. This is our mission." Whether the slam competitions have led the Café astray from its original "mission" is debatable. In any event, as the Café celebrates its 30-year anniversary, the fact that Algarín owns the building which houses the venue renders it a symbol of both survival and possibility. As long as the Café remains in the neighborhood, maybe Piñero would still want to see his ashes scattered "thru out" the Lower East Side.
check it folks
4.23.2004
some new stuff....
Keep Going
Drought dries drown
Down dull dust
Windows filled with rust
Pain/blood/spill
Real/hard to trust
Broken bottom can bust
Any security seein sunrise
Rub light in eyes
Cries of colonial constipation
Rewindin clocks
Categorial consumption
Cranial contusion
Chronic confusion
We circulate in silly cycles
Cynical sinister each second
Look at who’s here
Who’s done forgotten
Those next to come
At some point in life
There is the run
From whatever
you don’t want to bother
tomorrow frustrated
follow sollow
too bitter to beg or borrow
swallow cowardice
dookey duty
crap courage
everyday wake up empty
pour glass of hard work in cup
sip sink into purpose
dig deeper beyond sucka surface
realize heart working
through hurting
love made you
you made love
YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN WORTHLESS
Wild with wicked limits
Kick it with spirits
Heavenly rhythmic
In sync with tradition
Position poverty
Dunk clap funk rap
Spit blues indigo
In the flo
Script rip quick flick lick tip
Slick click rift lift fix fix
Pick
Pigs get poison portion pie
Can find worms in bruised fruit
Apples of each other’s eyes
Apprehension relentin’
Few get message with furious intentions
Progression only natural
Hustled this way cuz I had to
No other option
One way street toward dead ends
Context craving/daily saving
Long way to learn
Long days to earn
Children of el sol burned
By righteous rays
Rhythm revised rigorous recognition
Ritual rites of passage
Full years pass quick
Drastic drowning depths of death
Hard to understand breadth of breath
Never know when last ones left
Watch where you step
Most secrets kept inside
Frozen rain against face
Makes you feel alive
Mothers still giving
Salami huevo sandwiches
Anguish heard in many languages
Down broken elevator shafts
Clanging cold radiators
Blown fuse blackout
Milk’s lukewarm
Meat brown
Melted butter in refrigator
Mean dead cat smell from incinerator
Phone disconnected
Call back later
Wonder why there’s so many
Haters in the city?
When the rich get filet mignon
Fried empty fulfillment
& we got pork fried pity
pittance 4 pleasure
one man’s trash
next man’s treasure
sometimes the sun is dull
like no2 pencils from 99c
store after a multiple choice test
what it’s about now
is holdin’ on
times is tougher
than 4day old chuletas
under that fritura light bulb
-morales, 2004
4.20.2004
para ti mama
just wanted to say thank you
all we got is us
shout out to maria cruz my 8th grade girlfriend. i bumped into her on the bus and i'm glad we said what's up to each other. wow 8th grade so young so innocent. how the times have changed.
ant
4.15.2004
ant
4.08.2004
these next few weeks are gonna be crazy!!!! i got so much to do...
APR 12TH BAR 13'S 13TH STREET AND UNIVERSITY PLACE STARTING AROUND 7PM
ANTHONY MORALES FEATURE....
HOLLA AT ME...LET ME KNOW WHAT'S UP...ANTHONY@UNDERCOVERENT.COM
PEACE
4.05.2004
you are amazing
i don't know if i tell you
enough love is real
peace
3.31.2004
3.30.2004
the next day i went to el museo del barrio for their moma latin america exhibit amazing amazing. wilfredo larn, siquieros collective suicide among others was the bomb. then i went to jimmy's uptown to eat. GREAT!!
this week i'm just trying to get to friday as always. but next week is spring break!!!! milhouse style scream. just to get away from my school will be beautiful.
so yall stay up say your prayers eat your vitamins believe in God and pray for the knicks to make the playoffs. i'll holla....ant
3.26.2004
i gots some detention to give out today. i'm trying to minimize that but if i'm trying to talk to you and you don't listen simply put we gots to chill. i'm tired of being frustrated.
holla folks. talk to ya hopefully over the weekend. have a good one.
ant
3.25.2004
april will be a good month. the 5th (upstate) and 12th (bar 13) and 16th (upstate) will all be happening. april 20-21st i'm still unclear on.
check out these sites.
www.rebelsoul.com
www.rodrigo-ny.com
www.sohh.com
www.nuyorican.org
www.elpuertoricanembassy.org
www.louderarts.org
www.soulstrut.com
www.sandboxautomatic.com
www.triple5soul.com
www.michaelmoore.com
www.livepoets.net
check out my web homies show em some love tell em you got there from here. tell a friend to tell a friend. folks this is only gonna be as live as you want it to be. the more exposure, more gigs, more gigs, more poetry......holla at me anthony@undercoverent.com
little throwback jawn real quick because i talked to this person recently ...congrats and stay up....
Who says those things?
Who says those things
that run through your hair
like wind chilling
your buttered toast skin
while warm hearts melt away
snowy white winterland frost
I do
Standing alone
with a biting breeze on the Great Lawn
of my soul I say
I love you
with every foggy breath of what’s left
What’s right now
was never thought of
on each twilight ringing
phone call that said
@sshole I love you
Don’t ever let me go
before Hello and after Peace
Who says those things?
Everything happens for a reason
Silent treatment and peekaboo tears
on full moons follow treason
in 4 seasons of sunsets smiles shining
defining for each other
young and love
On our cloud
we were above time
buying it with the change
in our pockets
Penny for your thoughts
Nickel for your kiss
Dime for your heart
This was not a layaway or 50% off sale
Failure was not the option
Every story that ends begins
once upon a time
where stars aligned and horoscopes
maybe give one hope
But who says those things?
You made me sing
dance move myself
to your slow jam heartbeat
You have me on my feet
Who else can we meet?
Who says those things?
I do
Because this is what I miss
Anthony Morales
3.24.2004
peace ant
3.22.2004
besides that my two teams in the ncaas got bumped - manhattan and seton hall. shouts to andre barrett from story ave doing it way big.
birthday shout to juma waugh the muscle behind undercoverent.com.
word up yall these next three months are gonna be tough. somehow i gotta finish up TC, perform at crazy places, keep going to teach and finding a way to chill. hectic times for the kid.
here goes some thoughts:
“To accept one’s past - one’s history - is not the same as drowning in it, it is learning how to use it.” -unknown quote, just sum sh*t I read
You can take the person out the ghetto but you can’t take the ghetto out the person. I’ve been to a typical New England Boarding School - Andover - and an Ivy League institution - Columbia University - and I still feel like if I go crazy tomorrow, you will find me on a corner or near a park’s benches - zoned out mumbling or shouting one of my poems. Not that my sh*t is classic material that you can mouth off & people will finish your sentences, but to me it gets no realer because I know everything that I write about.
We need to put some type of order to the chaos of everyday living & I do that by bridging the gaping gaps left by my lower miseducation. I need to see life happening while routine is in place. Mostly everyone’s past is fractured in some hairline or compound way. The real question is how do we place the jagged edges back together? Overlap is sometimes okay but we don’t want no black holes we can’t return from either.
Before we can accept our oppressors, we must see ourselves purely and examine the ways we’ve been tainted. Me - by this point all the good/bad parts are together blurred into non descript emotion that causes me sometimes to feel frozen & I be shivering in the sun. I wonder how I even have the language to tell you this pain. That saying it would have been better to be blind than to see the ugly realness of reality - I do be feeling that way because so many folks I see not even questioning their positions with smiles on their faces while I wallow in empty satisfaction sulking in silence with a chorus of apathetic apologies in hushed harsh tones.
We use history like Dutches unwrap split discard the extra & roll it just right so that we can pull for a while. The Puerto Rican Day Parade is beautiful some don’t even know what the place is or looks like. All we know are coquis coquitos chupacabras chuletas bloody battered bochinche pernil PR Air Force 1s & you can find us screaming Que Bonita Bandera & WEPA til we lose our voices.
The future? That’s a heavy question but let’s hope the answer is a beautiful canela baby eyes like midnite at la playa climbing out of its colonial crib with bars crawling towards the sunset over the projects reaching for the moon while smiling.
-Morales, 2004
3.17.2004
ant
Tiene phosphoro
I need a light to spark this
Right hm mmm that’s it
Stop actin so tuff
Didn’t you ever cry once
After smoking blunts?
Deep haikus
The small universe
Does not allow me to see
Around our problems
Some people wonder
Why I am so strange they do
Not know how I feel
Things start to warm up
Just a little bit for now
Next day might be cold
Remember losing
My two front teeth I was scared
Then I stopped crying
What are you doing?
You need to ask that question
Alone if you can
Still feel chill in breeze
When its calm still be on point
If not might be gone
3.16.2004
peace ant
ps very fitting poem considering last nite....
Haze Hi/Lo
eyes glazed
& red
from too many
blunts to the head
lids heavy
neck nod
all that purp smoke
thought you saw God
no ill fitted
crisp white tee
brand new kicks
dipped out gear
will make
you be
what you
could have been
-Morales, 2004
3.15.2004
sopranos was good right? i love it so much but then i hate that i have to wait til next week to get my fix. uncle junior is gonna get popped..just my prediction.
i got spring break from classes so i'll be kicking it all week. but i still have to come into work. will definitely be kicking it with ms. baker. i was such a fool once upon a time (still am) but i'm lucky and blessed. thank you.
i think and hope folks are looking at this. let me know send me a shout.
peace ant
Diversity Haiku
Usually only
Speck of sazon in the whole
Porcelain plate white rice
Sadness is black
It smells like burnt chicken & pegao
It looks like street corners after storms
It tastes like $1 menu when you got no other choices
It feels like teeth throbbin & dull headaches
Sadness is Babita not goin back to her isla
before she passes.
-Morales, 2004
3.12.2004
yesterday i went to check out another school in the bronx 180th and mapes right off of southern blvd. it was a great chance to see something different than what i'm currently going through. it shows that given the right chance to succeed, children can excel. we'll see how that works out.
after that, just rode back to the cribs, kicked it with moms, who i hadn't seen in a week. everything is good.
tonight, mad last minute i know, i'll be the featured poet at the nuyorican poets' cafe at 3rd btw b+c ave. everything starts at like 10. stop by if you've never been there before guaranteed to be a good time. i haven't rocked at the nuyo for a while. i am the last fresh poet they named and it always feels good to come back home where it all started. god how far i've come since i was that 17 yr old kid reading a poem in the open room at like 2 in the morning about my parent's breakup.
You move me like air
on roofs stars close touch heaven
with soft kisses on lips
if you around give me a shout tonite. the kid should be in classic form.
peace ant
3.11.2004
ars poetica
Between skyscraper dark alleys
wide open wilderness valleys
summer’s thick sweat
winter’s deep shiver
my heart hides in misty shadows of ash colored lungs
behind a shaking rib cage vest
delicate to absorb frustrated fist pounding
jagged breezes sharply cutting at acute angles
secrets trapped in dimly lit project window
unknown combination locks rusted
for each crystallized snowflake tear that plunges
for every forgotten word smile
I meditate in remembrance hoping
these drifting thoughts are déjà vu
like summoning celestial ancestors
twilight conversations bullshitting
about tomorrow’s uncertainty
they once told me
if morning’s over easy sun smiles
then we can wink back
inside jokes with the sky
make flowers different tints
scattered remnants of happilyeverafter stir
in disturbed puddles
quiet waves crash cracked concrete
shattered mirror gives distorted reflection
no compliments
there you are simply
fragmented
como pernil en un cubano
could I rhyme this
to make it more musical
does it need to be
truth prefers to be whispered
loudly
away from orange street spot lights
IN THE FINAL ANALYSIS
Puerto Rico’s paralysis
caused that plane trip two suitcases
full of guayaberas and congas
My last name is Morales
more or less of the chicken soup
doesn’t matter when you want none
Phone home at telefonica
when Verizon’s not on the horizon
Infinite rights fly musical kites
cutting cloud Dutch Master
Sky’s falling like chicken little said
Alley cats and stray dogs pouring
Rain Rain Rain go away
Rain Rain Rain go away
so i can come out and play another day
Puddle puzzle pieces
muzzle dollar & dream lotto mottos
Broken windows closed doors
Process is triangle rest lah spot to cornerstore
Buy nickel bags of weed
Throw the seeds in the ashtray
Hope one day they’ll grow like
weeds in vacant lots blowing to & fro
Depends on if the sun’s shining
Clouds got silver linings
Story books happy endings
Ghettos got tomorrows
looking like yesterday’s
five o’clock shadow
Silhouette sidewalks of New York
talk bochinche and smell of seasoned
pork shoulder/Chips get colder
as temperature congeals/reveals
truth inside platano peels
Don’t slip
Or is that superstition ??
40’s blunts and hearts cause us reminiscin’
traditions of tragedies cause
apathy galaxies
and mothership’s headed
towards the black hole
Soul outta control like runaway rollercoasters
Toaster burning bagels
unable to turn table
flippin’ through cable to find
spiritual inner peace
feast at TV dinners of fools
think it this game we know the rules?
I learned in kindergarten
color outside the lines for
a more pretty picture
In Life’s coloring book
we are characters
with empty thought bubbles
thick like cotton clouds
separate each thread unique
cobwebs of soliloquies
Meditate on memory stashed on shelf
dusty self/reflection in transit train/express
many stumble on escalators of success
Poem for Bro
“Life’s a Bitch/and then you die/that’s why I get high/because you never know/when you gonna go”….. Nas, Life’s a Bitch circa 1994
Blunt smoke traces
the city sky
while ill natured cops
cruise by
in anonymous cars
Sirens and a sudden red light
flash across the brown faces
of two headboppin
acapella poet brothers
in the cypher on 117th
The night danced
to what we could see
from our project windows
with the window guard jail bars
The fuzz questioned
their own intentions
because they bring whiteness/violence
45s and nightsticks
and all we had between us
was five bucks a Dutch and
the truth of our lyrics
So what could we do
against their power?
Te lo digo
His blood ran through my veins
and it was like that chill
that our heaters got at night
all those winters
Courtesy Professionalism
Respect splintered
our innocence
with perceived pretenses
of crimes because of the contrast
of our skin tones
with the night and day of theirs
I started reflecting
on how easy things used to be
We used to soak the sun
and smile
when we were still a family
We were the only ones in CPG
with red roses in our garden
Then Housing tore up our backyard
uprooted the grass
while the roses dried
in that same sun
we used to drink like Tropicana
in the overflowing garbage
I think of moments
like these when the wind
blows the leaves on the trees
upside down light green
clean and dry
Time flew pass us bro
and I cry with these words
because we’ve never been to Disneyland
and hugged Mickey Mouse
We used to give out pennies
at Halloween
and we used to fight
for the seat at the back of the bus
We come from those roots
Quarter waters and 50 cent coquitos
sofrito
y salsa singing
on Saturday mornings
by Ma while she cleaned
Fast forward
the scene ten years
and here we are on 117th
overlooking the Newport sign on the Deegan
across and away from
Rupp’s view
while the five questions us
about smoke in the air
I go to Columbia
and bro you left your mark
Us
We know nothing about nothing sir
we politely say to the officer
As we walk away
I say if I know anything
it’s what we’ve seen done and come from
Anthony Morales
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got a show coming up. apr 12th monday at bar 13 in union square. one of the best poetry shows around the city, mad talent, cool people and 2 for 1 drink specials. please come through support the kid. if things are really good they might ask me back;) last time i was there, it was willie perdomo's book release. shout out to willie, true poet. incredible night and i was staggering back home.
anybody seeing this stuff? holla at me let me know what you think about this page constructive criticism is appreciated. antmoralesnyc@hotmail.com
one mi gente
ant
3.10.2004
anyways, i'm pooped. the knicks. i love them to death. but when they choke and just show no heart i'm forced to have issues with them. steph coulda won that game but where was allan houston? let's not talk about that.
this saturday i will performing at the bronx river arts center for a tribute to the rev. pedro pietri. he passed last week. his wake was an amazing spiritual experience and seeing how much love was spread made me feel good about his life and the future of nuyorican poetry. RIP to the rev and big ups to the folks i saw over there.
about to jet to lunch. probably gonna take down some pizza. if you get the chance check out palace pizza parlor on dyckman and post. really great slices.
i'll holla in a while till then stay up yall.
ant
3.09.2004
boricua sestina
There was a scream in Lares
heard 30 years before Nelson Miles
and his army from America
caused the Boricuas
to create la isla in the South Bronx
and El Barrio
We hear those same screams on corners of El Barrio
Revolutionary descendants of Lares
fighting cold winters of single parent welfare in the South Bronx
A foreign concept to Nelson Miles
because as of 1898 Boricuas
belonged to America
But America
never belonged to us so we made El Barrio
A concrete isla with streetlights as palm trees and Boricuas
eat tostones play dominos in front of bodegas and talk bochinche of Lares
looking at la hara like Nelson Miles
What would have happened had he landed in Hunts Point in the South Bronx?
The South Bronx
would have offered him cocotazos - the United States of Ghetto America’
way of greeting strangers like Nelson Miles
who try to put McDonald’s and Starbucks in El Barrio
Don’t they understand that café con leche tastes better from Lares?
Nobody can commercialize mountain jibaro coffee made by Boricuas
Boricuas
are the rainbow people and one pot of gold lands in the South Bronx
another in Chicago and wherever else Chango echoes Lares’
scream It falls on deaf ears in America
where they don’t see that El Barrio
is a product of Nelson Miles
and July 25th belonged to Nelson Miles
bringing good will for the best interests of Boricuas
Ask the viejo in front of GoodWill in El Barrio
if he remembers how he got there and he’ll say he lived in the South Bronx
went to Korea because of America
and had to burn down straw huts while getting visions of flaming bohios in Lares
He may have not heard the scream of Lares or of Nelson Miles
but he said in between in sincere gulps of 151 that America has no place for Boricuas
and his boat ride has only led to a daily 6 train ride between the South Bronx and El Barrio
copyright 2004 anthony morales
today mar9th i got class down at Teacher's College, it should be good. I have Feminist Perspectives in Literature and I definitely need to learn a thing or infinity cuz I'm willing to admit my ignorance. I'm working on it I swear I am.
went to andover same school as president bush and his pops, and i got better grades. graduated in 98 came back to the city, went to Columbia University. went to class spit poetry got my mind free saw a bunch of shit graduated in 02 with a degree in english/latino studies. got suckered into more education and here i am now. i be complaining a lot, but truly i feel blessed to be where i'm at.
poetry. that's the main reason why yall here. biggest thing to happen to me was discovering the nuyorican poet's cafe at 17 for the grand slam 1997. sarah jones, saul williams, roger bonair agaard, jamaal st john, flaco. needless to say i was blown away. at the same time, i was reading the nuyorican canon of piri, mikey, the rev, sandy, willie, tato, and just finding out about albizu, betances, fidel, che and other beautiful people. such an innocent time. it was all a dream.
i could go through the whole story but the journalists would never holla at me. i'm sure we'll get back to how it happened.
for now list of influences, people to check out if you ain't heard of em, overall fly ish......
-big pun every song ever made (CAPITAL PUNISHMENT)
-miles davis - blue n green (GREATEST SONG EVER)
-willie where a nickel cost a dime & smoking lovely + the day hector lavoe died
-the reverend pedro pietri obviously puerto rican obituary but everything else too..(elpuertoricanembassy.org)
-heatmakerz beats - they the dipset production crew...real shit
-any primo beat - one of my life's goals is to have a primo track on my album
-james de la vega - ny sidewalk artist and muralist en el barrio
-jean grae, lauryn hill, remy martin, apani b
-mayda del valle, mariposa, sandra maria esteves, la bruja, lethy d, ejima baker
-nas illmatic
-hector lavoe, ralfi pagan, joe bataan
this is the beginning list....check out these things....
here goes some ish yall might like.....one ant ....anthony@undercoverent.com
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Clason Point Haikus
1
Girls play Double Dutch
Dancing over spilled blunt guts
Moms screams once it’s dark
2
Sitting on the benches
Sunlight seeps thru midnight trees
Deez quickly move in
3
You can run fast now
No Social Security
Once outside the bars
4
Old timer plays chess
I’ll bust your ass take your bitch
Leave you without queen
5
Dreams are stars in cloudy
New York sky Once in a blue
Moon you’ll see one fly
6
Do not bite hangnails
Or toenails keep new clippings
Like butts in ashtray
7
Leaves hang low wind blows
Broken glass lays quiet Steam
Rises from beer grave
8
Alley kittens crawl
In trash can Mother has fish
Bone hanging from lips